.:.fulfilling dreams.:.

2011-08-06T22:30:00.000+08:00

我太小孩子气了，是时候长大了

2011-08-06T19:52:00.002+08:00

每次说话都不守信用

希望越大，失望更大.

2011-07-31T10:31:00.000+08:00

Stronger :
Hey, heard you were up all night
Thinking about how your world ain't right
And you wonder if things will ever get better
And you're asking why is it always raining on you
When all you want is just a little good news
Instead of standing there stuck out in the weather

Oh, don't hang your head
It's gonna end
God's right there
Even if it's hard to see Him
I promise you that He still cares

When the waves are taking you under
Hold on just a little bit longer
He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger
The pain ain't gonna last forever
And things can only get better
Believe me
This is gonna make you stronger
Gonna make you stronger, stronger, stronger
Believe me, this is gonna make you ...

Try and do the best you can
Hold on and let Him hold your hand
And go on and fall into the arms of Jesus
Oh, lift your head it's gonna end
God's right there
Even when you just can't feel Him
I promise you that He still cares

'Cause if He started this work in your life
He will be faithful to complete it
If only you believe it
He knows how much it hurts
And I'm sure that He's gonna help you get through this

When the waves are taking you under
Hold on just a little bit longer
He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger
The pain ain't gonna last forever
In time it's gonna get better
Believe me
This is gonna make you stronger
Hey, heard you were up all night
Thinking about how your world ain't right
And you wonder if things will ever get better
And you're asking why is it always raining on you
When all you want is just a little good news
Instead of standing there stuck out in the weather

Oh, don't hang your head
It's gonna end
God's right there
Even if it's hard to see Him
I promise you that He still cares

When the waves are taking you under
Hold on just a little bit longer
He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger
The pain ain't gonna last forever
And things can only get better
Believe me
This is gonna make you stronger
Gonna make you stronger, stronger, stronger
Believe me, this is gonna make you ...

Try and do the best you can
Hold on and let Him hold your hand
And go on and fall into the arms of Jesus
Oh, lift your head it's gonna end
God's right there
Even when you just can't feel Him
I promise you that He still cares

'Cause if He started this work in your life
He will be faithful to complete it
If only you believe it
He knows how much it hurts
And I'm sure that He's gonna help you get through this

When the waves are taking you under
Hold on just a little bit longer
He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger
The pain ain't gonna last forever
In time it's gonna get better
Believe me
This is gonna make you stronger

2011-01-08T19:31:00.001+08:00

less than a month.
gonna be busy...

2010-12-23T09:40:00.003+08:00

mummy says tt daddy might not be able to afford me for another year of study. we'll see. oh well, right now i have a degree. i'm jus glad tt i have chosen the one yr route rather than what i want, which takes two years. at least i wont be left hanging :P

we'll see. :) Christmas is coming.. my relatives are coming too.. gazillion years didnt see them already. seriously dunno what to talk to them about too.. hmm. headache

2010-12-11T10:01:00.001+08:00

the same old route,
the familiar faces
just bring warmth to my heart :)

2010-12-09T09:27:00.000+08:00

when you lost something long enough,
then you will understand how much it really means to you.

2010-12-06T08:01:00.001+08:00

HELLO i'm back.. Melbourne is soo much fun! blog when i'm free after packing. :P oh well....
and tml is the day :)))

2010-12-01T13:51:00.001+08:00

I've met the darkness
Been held by the night
Lonely was there in my arms
I've been with broken
I've stared in her eyes
Emptiness left me this scar

But I heard your voice
Calling me out of the cold

CHORUS:

And now I can live again
I have been chosen to run with the wind
I can go higher I know I will soar
I'm taller I'm stronger I'm better than before

I've walked through fire so I could become
All that you said I could be
And now my breath has a reason
My sky has a sun
Cause in you Ive found all that I need

Your touch revived me
It was your love that opened my eyes

CHORUS:
And now I can live again
I have been chosen to run with the wind
I can go higher I know I will soar
I'm taller I'm stronger I'm better than before

I broke through the rain
Stuck through the storm
Now I know I remain
And I can do the impossible
I can reach the unreachable

Its my time
I will rise and live

And I can go higher I know I will soar
I'm taller I'm stronger I'm better than before

CHORUS:
And now I can live again
I have been chosen to run with the wind
I can go higher I know I will soar
I'm taller I'm stronger I'm better than before

2010-11-20T10:55:00.002+08:00

i always see myself as a free spirited person.
at last i gonna be travelling around:)
I cant wait to travel.
I cant wait to start working and start saving, so i can travel moree...
all around the world.
If there is a job tt requires me to travel. i will go for it mann. seriously.
but still time with my family right now is the most impt to me :D

2010-11-15T18:02:00.000+08:00

work begins when you don't like what you are doing

Little children can do the most amazing things with such joy and fun. You were little once too, and knew how to turn everything into a game. So, turn your work into a game, and you will find joy and satisfaction in it. What are some ways you can start being playful with work?

2010-11-12T23:25:00.000+08:00

Everyone becomes stronger everytime when we fall and realize that holding on is the only option. Giving up is just an excuse used by the weak. Never back down, let's keep our chins up and look ahead.

2010-11-11T20:30:00.001+08:00

Remembrance Day

In Flanders fields the poppies blow
Between the crosses, row on row,
That mark our place; and in the sky
The larks, still bravely singing, fly
Scarce heard amid the guns below.

We are the Dead. Short days ago
We lived, felt dawn, saw sunset glow,
Loved and were loved, and now we lie,
In Flanders fields.

Take up our quarrel with the foe:
To you from failing hands we throw
The torch; be yours to hold it high.
If ye break faith with us who die
We shall not sleep, though poppies grow
In Flanders fields.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Remembrance_Day

Listen, Beyonce

2010-11-11T16:12:00.000+08:00

2010-11-11T14:25:00.001+08:00

2010-11-11T13:52:00.001+08:00

Always You
Charice Pempengco

I've been to so many moments in my life
Where I can't find anyone to turn to but You
Only You
Always You.

And when all that's around me are fallin'
You will remain there standing just for me
Only You
Only You.

In my weakest times, You were so strong
When all hope is gone, You carry on
I draw my strength from You
When I could no longer find any of it in me.

You are my life
You are my strength
I can't fight the battle alone
I can make it through when I'm with You.

'Cause You are my shield
You are my soul
You're breathing life into my heart
All the love that I have come from You
Always You.

I've been lost in the middle of nowhere
And I can't find my way home
I'm so lost without You
But You have pulled me through.

You took me in Your arms
And You rescued me from the dark
And now, I'm finally home
I feel safe, 'cause now I'm with You.

'Cause You are my life
You are my strength
I can't fight the battle alone
I can make it through when I'm with You.

'Cause You are my shield
You are my soul
You're breathing life into my heart
All the love that I have come from You.

All the love that I have come from You, You, wooh...

My life
You are my strength
I can't fight the battle alone
I can make it through when I'm with You.

You are my shield
You are my soul
You're breathing life into my heart
All the love that I have comes from You.

Always You, always You, always You
Only from you
All the love that I have come from You
Always You.

2010-11-08T22:09:00.002+08:00

hyehey! pple. i finsih my examss. lol..
it was on the 6th of nov.
the first day of the exam period, is my first and last paper..
ended sooo soon! no more exams in my life AGAIN!
omg. i kinda miss tt.
oh well...
thought i would feel really really excited after the paper end,
i didnt. I think i saw what is coming...
honours..
went to meet him today..
all was well.. tml induction, the day after i will be observing ppl in the lab.
so when i come back (honours starting early, oh man, can enjoy CNY fully AGAIN!) i can begin with my project. hm.. i guess i will rest when i reach home :D

2010-11-03T21:59:00.002+08:00

Don't work. Avoid telling the truth. Be hated. Love someone.

-----Written by Adrian Tan, author of The Teenage Textbook (1988), was the guest-of-honour at a recent NTU convocation ceremony. This was his speech to the graduating class of 2008.-----

I must say thank you to the faculty and staff of the Wee Kim Wee School of Communication and Information for inviting me to give your convocation address. It’s a wonderful honour and a privilege for me to speak here for ten minutes without fear of contradiction, defamation or retaliation. I say this as a Singaporean and more so as a husband.

My wife is a wonderful person and perfect in every way except one. She is the editor of a magazine. She corrects people for a living. She has honed her expert skills over a quarter of a century, mostly by practising at home during conversations between her and me.

On the other hand, I am a litigator. Essentially, I spend my day telling people how wrong they are. I make my living being disagreeable.

Nevertheless, there is perfect harmony in our matrimonial home. That is because when an editor and a litigator have an argument, the one who triumphs is always the wife.

And so I want to start by giving one piece of advice to the men: when you’ve already won her heart, you don’t need to win every argument.

Marriage is considered one milestone of life. Some of you may already be married. Some of you may never be married. Some of you will be married. Some of you will enjoy the experience so much, you will be married many, many times. Good for you.

The next big milestone in your life is today: your graduation. The end of education. You’re done learning.

You’ve probably been told the big lie that “Learning is a lifelong process” and that therefore you will continue studying and taking masters’ degrees and doctorates and professorships and so on. You know the sort of people who tell you that? Teachers. Don’t you think there is some measure of conflict of interest? They are in the business of learning, after all. Where would they be without you? They need you to be repeat customers.

The good news is that they’re wrong.

The bad news is that you don’t need further education because your entire life is over. It is gone. That may come as a shock to some of you. You’re in your teens or early twenties. People may tell you that you will live to be 70, 80, 90 years old. That is your life expectancy.

I love that term: life expectancy. We all understand the term to mean the average life span of a group of people. But I’m here to talk about a bigger idea, which is what you expect from your life.

You may be very happy to know that Singapore is currently ranked as the country with the third highest life expectancy. We are behind Andorra and Japan, and tied with San Marino. It seems quite clear why people in those countries, and ours, live so long. We share one thing in common: our football teams are all hopeless. There’s very little danger of any of our citizens having their pulses raised by watching us play in the World Cup. Spectators are more likely to be lulled into a gentle and restful nap.

Singaporeans have a life expectancy of 81.8 years. Singapore men live to an average of 79.21 years, while Singapore women live more than five years longer, probably to take into account the additional time they need to spend in the bathroom.

So here you are, in your twenties, thinking that you’ll have another 40 years to go. Four decades in which to live long and prosper.

Bad news. Read the papers. There are people dropping dead when they’re 50, 40, 30 years old. Or quite possibly just after finishing their convocation. They would be very disappointed that they didn’t meet their life expectancy.

I’m here to tell you this. Forget about your life expectancy.

After all, it’s calculated based on an average. And you never, ever want to expect being average.

Revisit those expectations. You might be looking forward to working, falling in love, marrying, raising a family. You are told that, as graduates, you should expect to find a job paying so much, where your hours are so much, where your responsibilities are so much.

That is what is expected of you. And if you live up to it, it will be an awful waste.

If you expect that, you will be limiting yourself. You will be living your life according to boundaries set by average people. I have nothing against average people. But no one should aspire to be them. And you don’t need years of education by the best minds in Singapore to prepare you to be average.

What you should prepare for is mess. Life’s a mess. You are not entitled to expect anything from it. Life is not fair. Everything does not balance out in the end. Life happens, and you have no control over it. Good and bad things happen to you day by day, hour by hour, moment by moment. Your degree is a poor armour against fate.

Don’t expect anything. Erase all life expectancies. Just live. Your life is over as of today. At this point in time, you have grown as tall as you will ever be, you are physically the fittest you will ever be in your entire life and you are probably looking the best that you will ever look. This is as good as it gets. It is all downhill from here. Or up. No one knows.

What does this mean for you? It is good that your life is over.

Since your life is over, you are free. Let me tell you the many wonderful things that you can do when you are free.

The most important is this: do not work.

Work is anything that you are compelled to do. By its very nature, it is undesirable.

Work kills. The Japanese have a term “Karoshi”, which means death from overwork. That’s the most dramatic form of how work can kill. But it can also kill you in more subtle ways. If you work, then day by day, bit by bit, your soul is chipped away, disintegrating until there’s nothing left. A rock has been ground into sand and dust.

There’s a common misconception that work is necessary. You will meet people working at miserable jobs. They tell you they are “making a living”. No, they’re not. They’re dying, frittering away their fast-extinguishing lives doing things which are, at best, meaningless and, at worst, harmful.

People will tell you that work ennobles you, that work lends you a certain dignity. Work makes you free. The slogan “Arbeit macht frei” was placed at the entrances to a number of Nazi concentration camps. Utter nonsense.

Do not waste the vast majority of your life doing something you hate so that you can spend the small remainder sliver of your life in modest comfort. You may never reach that end anyway.

Resist the temptation to get a job. Instead, play. Find something you enjoy doing. Do it. Over and over again. You will become good at it for two reasons: you like it, and you do it often. Soon, that will have value in itself.

I like arguing, and I love language. So, I became a litigator. I enjoy it and I would do it for free. If I didn’t do that, I would’ve been in some other type of work that still involved writing fiction – probably a sports journalist.

So what should you do? You will find your own niche. I don’t imagine you will need to look very hard. By this time in your life, you will have a very good idea of what you will want to do. In fact, I’ll go further and say the ideal situation would be that you will not be able to stop yourself pursuing your passions. By this time you should know what your obsessions are. If you enjoy showing off your knowledge and feeling superior, you might become a teacher.

Find that pursuit that will energise you, consume you, become an obsession. Each day, you must rise with a restless enthusiasm. If you don’t, you are working.

Most of you will end up in activities which involve communication. To those of you I have a second message: be wary of the truth. I’m not asking you to speak it, or write it, for there are times when it is dangerous or impossible to do those things. The truth has a great capacity to offend and injure, and you will find that the closer you are to someone, the more care you must take to disguise or even conceal the truth. Often, there is great virtue in being evasive, or equivocating. There is also great skill. Any child can blurt out the truth, without thought to the consequences. It takes great maturity to appreciate the value of silence.

In order to be wary of the truth, you must first know it. That requires great frankness to yourself. Never fool the person in the mirror.

I have told you that your life is over, that you should not work, and that you should avoid telling the truth. I now say this to you: be hated.

It’s not as easy as it sounds. Do you know anyone who hates you? Yet every great figure who has contributed to the human race has been hated, not just by one person, but often by a great many. That hatred is so strong it has caused those great figures to be shunned, abused, murdered and in one famous instance, nailed to a cross.

One does not have to be evil to be hated. In fact, it’s often the case that one is hated precisely because one is trying to do right by one’s own convictions. It is far too easy to be liked, one merely has to be accommodating and hold no strong convictions. Then one will gravitate towards the centre and settle into the average. That cannot be your role. There are a great many bad people in the world, and if you are not offending them, you must be bad yourself. Popularity is a sure sign that you are doing something wrong.

The other side of the coin is this: fall in love.

I didn’t say “be loved”. That requires too much compromise. If one changes one’s looks, personality and values, one can be loved by anyone.

Rather, I exhort you to love another human being. It may seem odd for me to tell you this. You may expect it to happen naturally, without deliberation. That is false. Modern society is anti-love. We’ve taken a microscope to everyone to bring out their flaws and shortcomings. It far easier to find a reason not to love someone, than otherwise. Rejection requires only one reason. Love requires complete acceptance. It is hard work – the only kind of work that I find palatable.

Loving someone has great benefits. There is admiration, learning, attraction and something which, for the want of a better word, we call happiness. In loving someone, we become inspired to better ourselves in every way. We learn the truth worthlessness of material things. We celebrate being human. Loving is good for the soul.

Loving someone is therefore very important, and it is also important to choose the right person. Despite popular culture, love doesn’t happen by chance, at first sight, across a crowded dance floor. It grows slowly, sinking roots first before branching and blossoming. It is not a silly weed, but a mighty tree that weathers every storm.You will find, that when you have someone to love, that the face is less important than the brain, and the body is less important than the heart.

You will also find that it is no great tragedy if your love is not reciprocated. You are not doing it to be loved back. Its value is to inspire you.

Finally, you will find that there is no half-measure when it comes to loving someone. You either don’t, or you do with every cell in your body, completely and utterly, without reservation or apology. It consumes you, and you are reborn, all the better for it.

Don’t work. Avoid telling the truth. Be hated. Love someone.

2010-10-31T22:02:00.003+08:00

I'm so madly in love with this Colosseum.. doesnt tt look magnificent to you. omg..

went to a travel expo today, its all about Europe. the presentor was telling abt this structure in Rome, Italy.

10 years time, i wanna be there!!!! :DDD cant wait. I will go read up on all these stuff.. sounds soo interestinggg.

2010-10-24T22:11:00.001+08:00

Would you rather do well but take longer time or do average but a lot faster than most ppl?

2010-10-24T17:24:00.002+08:00

Thought I share it with everyone.

Five Regrets of the Dying By Bronnie Ware Platinum Quality Author

For many years I worked in palliative care. My patients were those who had gone home to die. Some incredibly special times were shared. I was with them for the last three to twelve weeks of their lives.

People grow a lot when they are faced with their own mortality. I learned never to underestimate someone's capacity for growth. Some changes were phenomenal. Each experienced a variety of emotions, as expected, denial, fear, anger, remorse, more denial and eventuallyacceptance. Every single patient found their peace before they departed though, every one of them.

When questioned about any regrets they had or anything they would do differently, common themes surfaced again and again. Here are the most common five:

1. I wish I'd had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.
This was the most common regret of all. When people realise that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people have had not honoured even a half of their dreams and had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made.

It is very important to try and honour at least some of your dreams along the way. From the moment that you lose your health, it is too late. Health brings a freedom very few realise, until they no longer have it.

2. I wish I didn't work so hard.
This came from every male patient that I nursed. They missed their children's youth and their partner's companionship. Women also spoke of this regret. But as most were from an older generation, many of the female patients had not been breadwinners. All of the men I nursed deeply regretted spending so much of their lives on the treadmill of a work existence.

By simplifying your lifestyle and making conscious choices along the way, it is possible to not need the income that you think you do. And by creating more space in your life, you become happier and more open to new opportunities, ones more suited to your new lifestyle.

3. I wish I'd had the courage to express my feelings.
Many people suppressed their feelings in order to keep peace with others. As a result, they settled for a mediocre existence and never became who they were truly capable of becoming. Many developed illnesses relating to the bitterness and resentment they carried as a result.

We cannot control the reactions of others. However, although people may initially react when you change the way you are by speaking honestly, in the end it raises the relationship to a whole new and healthier level. Either that or it releases the unhealthy relationship from your life. Either way, you win.

4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.

Often they would not truly realise the full benefits of old friendsuntil their dying weeks and it was not always possible to track them down. Many had become so caught up in their own lives that they had let golden friendships slip by over the years. There were many deep regrets about not giving friendships the time and effort that they deserved. Everyone misses their friends when they are dying.

It is common for anyone in a busy lifestyle to let friendships slip. But when you are faced with your approaching death, the physical details of life fall away. People do want to get their financial affairs in order if possible. But it is not money or status that holds the true importance for them. They want to get things in order more for the benefit of those they love. Usually though, they are too ill and weary to ever manage this task. It is all comes down to love and relationships in the end. That is all that remains in the final weeks, love and relationships.

5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.
This is a surprisingly common one. Many did not realise until the end that happiness is a choice. They had stayed stuck in old patterns and habits. The so-called 'comfort' of familiarity overflowed into their emotions, as well as their physical lives. Fear of change had them pretending to others, and to their selves, that they were content. When deep within, they longed to laugh properly and have silliness in their life again.

When you are on your deathbed, what others think of you is a long way from your mind. How wonderful to be able to let go and smile again, long before you are dying.

Life is a choice. It is YOUR life. Choose consciously, choose wisely, choose honestly. Choose happiness.

2010-10-16T20:32:00.001+08:00

2010-10-15T13:24:00.000+08:00

Rushing for time is soo tiringg!!!
ARGHHH~

2010-10-13T20:43:00.005+08:00

this world is full of hypocrites.
i have one in my house.

why can u act nice to me when everybody is around and give me shit when i'm alone.
and i shld ignore pple who doesnt care for my feelings.
why shld i do soooo much for a person like tt?
i shld stop my overflowing concern towards ppl like you..
u shld do more kind deeds,
one day the one upstairs will take away things tt you dun deserve.

I will just be who I am, and whoever ask, i will tell them truthfully, cos i'm on the bright side and you are not! why did I thought tt I was wrong in the first place? trying to keep your reputation? why be nice to a person who ignore how you feel? i wont anymore. seriously.I WILL NOT SUFFER IN SILENCE

NEHNEHniBOOBOO!!

Life will be much happier without you ard.
but i will still be happy! at least happier than U!
HAHAHAHAA! cos I have pple ard me tt love me lotss lotss! & pple faraway too. Though physically far, i know mentally and spiritually they are close to my <3 :)))

2010-10-12T22:09:00.005+08:00

I want some happy pills :)

just earlier this morning, did my parasitology paper. WORMS were the big killerrr man.. oh god, i really want a good grade for this module. oh well, its done for the theory part. I must score for the pratical!!
JIAYOU JIAYOU :)))

after the paper was my self declared holiday, wanted to do my report for intro to rreaseach but fell asleepp. anw, i will finish up report tmr if possible and come out with the rough idea of my poster. hope the phd student will be happy with my performance. :))

teachers make a great impact on a student's life.

its not really how fierce the teacher is, or how humorous/lenient the teacher can be. But, the way he/she teach, the way he/she cares for students and his/her overall character tt earn my utmost respect. definitely a role model for me. I'm glad I met quite few on my journey of learning, even in uni. :)) just a random thought.

happy feelings :D

2010-10-09T09:38:00.002+08:00

a wound may hurt when its fresh and new, same injury on the same old place will hurt even more. it will surely still hurt, but you will expected it, when u bring urself in a vulnerable situation.

i meant it literally. oh man, shldnt eat late next time, gastric can get quite bad..
hweeing eat more eat more. hahahaha.. grow fat and diee~ LOL

2010-10-08T11:57:00.000+08:00

I'm learning.... :)

2010-10-07T12:49:00.003+08:00

cos' you chose to runaway, n choose not to explain. tt's why things happen.
the pain tt cannot be describe. yes, i chose to ignore cos' its the best thing i can do for u, given ur character.

2010-10-06T17:24:00.003+08:00

Exactly one month from now.
I think i will miss uni life.
honours is coming straight after.

i dunno how how i can endure.
but i will try.
well.. its just another one month.
maybe its just all the accumulative little things tt make me crazy.
all the mind boggling stuff, little emotional moments,
tt make me, not me anymore.

i start to snack a lot, mayb cos of the really bad atmosphere, stress, bad mood i'm getting into, i dunno.
Perphaps it just another discovey of myself.
any of these arent important.

this one month is gonna be a really really LONG, SLOW and TIRING month.
i hope i can get thru it. not only getting thru it, but able to do my best as well.
I really envy those who can give their best shot.

2010-10-03T08:24:00.002+08:00

A minute of silent for Mdm Kwa Geok Choo.
may you rest in peace.

Good friends always make you smile by the simplest things they do,
and whatever those IDIOTs did suddenly, it doesnt matter anymore.
i wan to have more more more of these great people to surround me,
all the people tt can give me positive force. :)) LOVE THEM ALL :D

2010-10-02T01:32:00.001+08:00

A sudden heavy downpour.

Time is running out.

2010-09-30T19:13:00.000+08:00

I will be!

To laugh often and much,
To win the respect of intelligent people
and the affection of children,
To earn the appreciation of honest critics and
Endure the betrayal of false friends,
To appreciate beauty,
To find the best in others,
To leave the world a bit better,
To know even one life has breathed easier
Because you have lived.
This is to have succeeded!!

***

2010-09-29T15:11:00.002+08:00

why do ppl like tt exist?

I'm tired i guess... no energy anymore.

i've got 2 reports to rush.
God pls give me strengh to overcome this.
its less than 2 months till the end of the exams.

2 months isnt long! i jus need to get over it.

2010-09-29T08:54:00.002+08:00

I'm still humane, okay.
jus cant believe i'm still so dumb.
i think i just need to stay away from negative ppl.
who gives me nth but anger.

ya, sort of train my endurance huh.
I think I'm quite good at tt.

2010-09-28T23:01:00.002+08:00

STOP FREAKING ATTRACTING ATTENTION.
this is not the bloody first time.
I want to punch u on your face.
seriously.
What can happen staying at home?
since u dont want to come out,
and you REQUESTED to have your own space.

And, BY THE WAY, I'M NOT CLOSE WITH YOU,
dont try to demand your way thru.
I dont take this crap.

can you stop bothering me and my friend.

Like what i was told, I will just be a kind hearted stranger.
so dont think you can get much from me.

i need lots of cold water.

sorry , i brought trouble in.

2010-09-26T13:42:00.000+08:00

Ignorance is bless.

Lady Antebellum "Never Alone" Music Video

2010-09-25T20:01:00.002+08:00

Never Alone

Lady Antebellum
Feat. Jim Brickman

May the angels protect you
Trouble neglect you
And heaven accept you when it's time to go home
May you always have plenty
Your glass never empty
Know in your belly
You're never alone

May your tears come from laughing
You find friends worth having
With every year passing
They mean more than gold
May you win but stay humble
Smile more than grumble
And know when you stumble
You're never alone

Never alone
Never alone
I'll be in every beat of your heart
When you face the unknown
Wherever you fly
This isn't goodbye
My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone

Well, I have to be honest
As much as I want it
I'm not gonna promise the cold winds won't blow
So when hard times have found you
And your fear surround you
Wrap my love around you
You're never alone

Never alone
Never alone
I'll be in every beat of your heart
When you face the unknown
Wherever you fly
This isn't goodbye
My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone

May the angels protect you
Trouble neglect you
And heaven accept you when it's time to go home
And when hard times have found you
And your fear surround you
Wrap my love around you
You're never alone

Never alone
Never alone
I'll be in every beat of your heart
When you face the unknown
Wherever you fly
This isn't goodbye
My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone
My love will follow you stay with you
Baby you're never alone

Thanks NGLIURONG dear, u make me happier :)

2010-09-24T08:07:00.001+08:00

we are always fighting our own personal battles,
but always rmb tt we're not alone.
we are always connected in some ways,
some ways we would never know.

2010-09-23T22:57:00.002+08:00

its mid autumn festival.
if i say i dont miss home, then i'm lying..
no mooncakes, no lanterns, no playing fire.
festive season, no festive moon.
no family ard, nobody ard.
a very quiet night, but i'm rushing for work.
so, i guess drowning myself in work is the best thing to do now??

**
jus met my supervisor's boss earlier today.
everything went well.
was quite nervous and got quite intimindated by his height and i first saw him.
he did ask a lot of questions, but i guess my experience is more than enough to talk abt.
anw, its my experience, so i jus talk. haha. it went well alright.
he accepted me. yea.. gonna submit my application! :)

2010-09-22T09:22:00.002+08:00

Happy EAT mooncake festival!!
I wan mooncake and green tea!!! HEHEHEE!

waste my time. seriously.
i'm here to study.
tt's all i know and tt's all i will do.

2010-09-21T14:11:00.001+08:00

不喊痛，不代表不痛；不說，不代表不在乎：
有時候....
就是因為真的痛、真的在乎.....才更加沉默..

I think tt's why I dont really wanna talk abt my own stuff to others sooo much. not tt i dont bother abt my own issues, its cos i really bother too much..
i shall not be like tt anymore yea.. =)

2010-09-20T15:41:00.001+08:00

济公活佛圣训

一生都是修来的――求什么今日不知明日事――愁什么
不礼爹娘礼世尊――敬什么兄弟姐妹皆同气――争什么
儿孙自有儿孙福――忧什么岂可人无得运时――急什么
人世难逢开口笑――苦什么补破遮寒暖即休――摆什么
食过三寸成何物――馋什么死后一文带不去――悭什么
前人田地后人收――占什么得便宜处失便宜――贪什么
举头三尺有神明――欺什么荣华富贵眼前花――傲什么
他家富贵前生定――妒什么前世不修今受苦――怨什么
赌博之人无下梢――耍什么治家勤俭胜求人――奢什么
冤冤相报几时休――结什么世事如同棋一局――算什么
聪明反被聪明误――巧什么虚言折尽平生福――谎什么
是非到底见分明――辩什么谁能保得常无事――诮什么
穴在人心不在山――谋什么欺人是祸饶人福――卜什么
寿自护生爱物增――杀什么一旦无常万事休――忙什么

really liked this. though i'm a free thinker, i believe in good in all the reglion. :)))

2010-09-13T21:27:00.002+08:00

why am i so vulnerable?
i thought my cover is hard enough to protect myself from any danger.
like a porcupine, with sharp pointed ends on the outside.
but more than often i trust too many pple with my soft side..
the side when i can jus watch a sad movie and cry.
shouldnt the ppl you trust be the one tt will cherish you?
i really mus learn the fact tt you can be good to everyone but tt doesnt mean everyone mus be jus as good as you or as trusting as you..

oh well.. its a learning curve, i'm still a beginner..

its jus another personal barrier tt i have to overcome..
i'm jus really really glad and happy there are pple tt love me, being there for me :)))

2010-09-09T23:20:00.003+08:00

its another beautiful night.
but its a night of doing report.
no time to enjoy the breeze outside the balcony.
hunger sets in. but tiredness is more overwhelming.

i hate myself.
yes i do.

i realise the biggest obstacle in my life, is myself.

how can i kill tt devil in me?

2010-09-07T23:30:00.002+08:00

starry night.
peaceful and quiet.
I can literally hear silence.
and of cos the clock ticking
and the fridge generator's sound.
softly at the background.
the stars seem to be the only light emitting source,
aside from the far away city lights.

How i wish every night was like that.

2010-09-06T21:51:00.002+08:00

so much things to do and think abt, but so little time. :(
overwhelmed. hais

2010-09-06T18:08:00.002+08:00

No harm moving away.
jus a tough and rocky path.

2010-09-06T15:41:00.000+08:00

Regretting the Choice That Seemed So Right When Is A Decision Truly a Bad One?

When Chandra was 39, she left a lucrative job in banking to pursue a counseling career. Long wanting to make this change, she chose to move forward when a psychologist friend promised her a position with his counseling firm once she completed the necessary training. Spurred on by his gracious offer of employment, she enrolled in a masters program full-time, living off savings till she finished her studies.

Chandra’s friend indeed hired her once she graduated. But a short time later, he left the practice due to health problems. Without his leadership, the center foundered, other counselors resigned, and within a year it folded.

Chandra lacked the clients and momentum to launch an independent practice, and she was unable to find work with another counseling agency in the Boston area where she lived. With her savings now depleted, she returned to a job in banking, leaving her counseling dream on indefinite hold.

When Chandra shared her experience with me, she said she was certain God had taught her a lesson through the frustrating circumstances that unfolded. He had shown her that she missed his will in attempting to become a counselor. She spoke repeatedly of having made a “bad decision.” As I probed a bit, it became clear that her ruminating wasn’t just ventilation or an exercise in self-pity. She was strongly convinced she had made an unfortunate mistake, and she had never questioned this assumption since the doors at the counseling center closed several years before. This conviction that she had failed greatly increased her discouragement, and dampened her zeal to risk a dream again.

Chandra was understandably surprised when I shared my own observation. I felt that her decision to enter the counseling profession hadn’t been a bad one at all, and that she shouldn’t be worrying about having missed God’s will. She had based her choice on the best information she had at the time--that she had obvious talent and long-standing motivation to become a counselor, plus an exceptional offer of employment. And she was taking a step that would increase her potential to contribute meaningfully to the needs of others. Especially important, she was a serious Christian who earnestly wanted God’s will, and she had prayed seriously about her decision.

Which of us, I thought, faced with her circumstances, would have decided differently?
Of course, had Chandra known how events would transpire, she never would have left banking for counseling. But that’s exactly the point. God seldom tips his hand about our future, and he guides us as much by information he withholds from us as by information he gives us.

He allows us to develop dreams and expectations, and he uses them to move us ahead. In some cases, he fulfills these dreams more-less as we envision them. In other cases, his intent isn’t to fulfill them but to use them to draw us to a point where, with the new insight we’ve gained, we can now see clearly to take a new direction with our life. Through this whole process he nurtures us with experiences of growth that never would have been ours if we had known the future--for then we never would have taken our venture of faith. But the education we gain through life’s unexpectedly bumpy paths is critical to our development, and God integrates it into our further experience in remarkable ways.

I obviously don’t know God’s intentions for Chandra’s future. She may re-enter the counseling field at some point. Whether or not she does, I’m certain that God will use her training and her experiences at the counseling center in ways that enhance her ministry for Christ and are deeply gratifying to her--if she stays open to him and pliable.

This is the lesson from the experience of another friend of mine who, some years ago, left the computer field to become a pastor. Though his congregations loved him, denominational factors made it difficult for him to minister as a church pastor. Finally, he left church ministry and, with some chagrin, took a job with a computer manufacturing firm once again. Yet soon he was granted permission to hold a weekly Bible study at that company, which many began attending. His pastoral background opened doors for ministry at that firm that would have been closed to him before. His is an inspiring example of how God uses the total mix of experiences in our life--the successes and the disappointments--to make us each uniquely effective.

Broken Dreams

When a dream that we follow backfires, it’s only human to question our original decision to pursue it, and to wonder if our mind was on vacation then. Many are unduly hard on themselves at such a time--even if they had based their choice on the best information they possibly could have had, and the circumstances that derailed their dream were impossible to foresee. We Christians are more prone to berate ourselves than anyone on such an occasion. Not only do we question our past judgment, but we get caught up in torturous questions about God’s will. The fact that we encounter any problems at all in a major pursuit can make us fear we’ve missed God’s will, and this concern deepens our sense of failure.

Dealing with failed expectations is difficult enough. Any of us who has experienced a setback as crushing as Chandra’s needs time to grieve our loss and to work through our feelings of disappointment. Yet add to this discouragement the conviction that our original decision was unsound, and our regret can be overwhelming. It can make us doubt that we have the competence now to turn our life around. And the guilt we feel over missing God’s will can keep us locked in place, fearing we lack the potential to follow his guidance successfully.

We should make a keen effort at such a time to imagine ourselves back in the context when we made our first choice. What were our circumstances then? What were the facts as we knew them then? Were we open to God’s will, and did we make a reasonable effort to seek it? If in fact our decision was the best it could have been under the circumstances, we should be gentle and affirming with ourselves now. We should strive to think as positively as we possibly can about that past decision. Rather than assume it was a bungled choice, we should regard it as a wise, competent decision--that in time may even prove to have been brilliant and enlightened.

We should strive also to appreciate the dynamic nature of God’s guidance, and how he brings us to important points in our life’s journey most often by a circuitous route. In time, we’ll likely look back on our current crisis as a vital turning point, which God has used to open up welcome new horizons for us. Such faith-inspired thinking will help us greatly to break the spell of regret, and to better recognize God’s new directions for us now.

Taking Heart at Turning Points

This isn’t to say that we’re incapable of making bad decisions as Christians. (sorry, i'm not) We find many examples in Scripture where choices made by otherwise godly people are presented as bad ones. But in every such case, the person was either insensitive to God’s leading, untrusting of him, or unfaithful to him--and in a major way. The leaders of Israel were beguiled into making a treaty of peace with Gibeon, for instance, because they “did not ask direction of the Lord” (Jos 9:14 RSV).

I’m not aware of any instance in Scripture, however, where someone made a reasonable effort to understand God’s will and to make a decision responsibly, and yet the biblical writer judged that choice as incompetent because of the results that took place. There are plenty of instances where individuals themselves questioned the sanity of decisions that God in fact had led them to make. Moses was so exasperated at Pharaoh’s initial refusal to let the Jews leave Egypt that he thought he had made the mistake of his life in petitioning the ruler to let them go. And when the Israelites faced challenges in their desert march, they concluded they had erred horrendously in leaving Egypt, even though they were initially ecstatic to break free of slavery there.

Yet never do we find a biblical writer (or God through that writer) passing judgment on someone’s good-faith decision due to problems that arose. The obstacles people encountered in such cases always had a higher purpose. Sometimes God used these setbacks to strengthen their faith, their trust in him and their resolve to stay committed to a challenging course of action. This was clearly his intent with all the difficulties the Israelites endured en route to Canaan, which never on any occasion were an indictment on their original decision to leave Egypt.
In other cases, God used hindrances to signal that, however enlightened someone’s initial decision was, he or she should now take a new direction. We find several instances of God’s guiding in this manner in Acts 16. Paul is twice hindered from entering regions where he wants to minister--Asia and Bithynia--then ends up in Troas briefly, only to be redirected to Macedonia. He manages initially to ignite a church in Macedonia, but after a brief time is compelled by unfriendly town authorities to leave. In each instance, Paul interprets obstacles as God’s sign, not that his ministry goals are wrong, but that it’s now time to look for greener pastures.

Any time you or I take a step of faith but then encounter a significant setback, we face the task of determining God’s intent. Is he merely testing our faith, and not wanting this problem to deter us from forging ahead toward our goal? Or is he showing us that we should now take a fresh direction? Discerning God’s will in such a case can be no small challenge. Being confident our original decision was sound doesn’t relieve us of the need now to pray earnestly and to draw once again on everything we know about understanding God’s guidance.

But how we think about that past decision can make a radical difference in our ability to hear God now, since the concern that we blew it can weigh us down to the point of distraction. Fortunately, we may be freed forever from the fear that a past decision that we made responsibly with an open heart to God’s will might now have to be judged misguided. This fact alone--that we are not compelled to have second thoughts about that decision--is tremendously liberating in itself. It can save us from the slippery slope of regret, and allow us the mental energy to confront our current situation creatively and optimistically. This is enormously good news for any of us who are inclined to comb over our past and to condemn ourselves for what we cannot change.

How Badly Can We Miss God’s Will?

An issue remains, and it can be a thorny one. The perspective we’re suggesting on past decisions is encouraging if we know that we were open to God’s will in a given choice and did our best to make it responsibly. But what if the opposite was true? We rushed our decision, without regard to what God wanted? Or we failed to trust him adequately, following the course of least resistance, instead of taking on challenges that would have been healthy for us? Or we knew full well that God wanted us to take a certain path, but in rebellion we chose another?
And what if the decision in question was a pivotal one, which forever affects our life in a sigrustrating circumstances that unbly missed God’s perfect will for the rest of our life? Are we compelled now to live with his second best?

Some well-meaning Christians will answer that, yes, God’s second-best is all we can settle for now. I once read a popular book on knowing God’s will in which the author spoke with regret about an early vocational decision he had made. God had called him to be a missionary when he was young, he explained, but he chose instead to become a physician. Now, writing his book much later in life, he lamented that he had forever cast himself out of God’s perfect will by following a medical career, and that he was only in a position now to experience God’s second-best options for him.

The author’s humility in speaking so freely of his own failure was refreshing. Yet his view of God was tragically small. Would the all-powerful God whom he served, who loved him so greatly, really let him get away with a mistake of this dimension?
Abraham failed profoundly in seeking to have a child by Hagar, and he and his family suffered consequences thereafter. Yet his sin didn’t deter God from bringing about the most important aspects of his plan for Abraham: Sarah still bore a child in her old age, and Abraham still became the father of countless descendants.

David sinned even more greatly when he sought a tryst with Bathsheba, and then had her husband killed in war. The consequences in this case were especially severe: God slew Bathsheba’s son whom she bore by David, in spite of David’s earnest pleas that God spare the child. That punishment, plus rebuke from the prophet Nathan, drove David to sincere repentance and deep sorrow over his lapse. But Scripture never implies that from this point on David had to live with God’s second best for his life. God still fulfilled his major promises for David. Most interestingly, God even worked David’s most serious mistake into his plan. Bathsheba became his wife, and it was she who gave birth to Solomon, the son who succeeded David on the throne. “She bore a son, and [David] called his name Solomon. And the LORD loved him” (2 Sam 12:24).

At first, it seems surprising that God allowed Bathsheba to have this supremely positive role in David’s life. Wasn’t God being overly permissive here? And wasn’t David left thinking he had benefited from his sin and from now on could presume upon God’s grace? I suspect, though, that the effect upon David was quite the opposite. God’s action was undoubtedly extremely humbling to him--an extraordinary reminder of just how thoroughly God was in control of his destiny.
This unspeakably far-reaching role that God plays in our lives as believers is best described by Paul, when he notes that God chose us to follow Christ “before the foundation of the world” (Eph 1:4). This means that our sin doesn’t take him by surprise, and doesn’t fatally broadside his plan for our life. He knows when and how we will fail before we ever do. He makes no promise to protect us from the unfortunate results of our sin. But when we sincerely repent and seek his forgiveness, we put ourselves in position to experience his best for our life from that point forward. To say we have forever removed ourselves from God’s perfect will in this case is to paint too small a picture of God, and to miss the authority he takes for working out his plan for us.

When we know we have truly failed Christ, repentance is exceedingly important, and we should give it serious attention. Yet, as time moves on, he doesn’t wish us to be sidelined with regret, but wants us to focus on the future, not the past--and to take heart that he will work even our most heinous failures into his perfect plan for our life.
Indeed, to embrace that hope as a matter of deepest faith is one of the best decisions we can make.
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2010-09-06T15:36:00.003+08:00

i seek for pple's appreciation.. but most of the time, there is none.
I always dun feel like i'm being needed anw.

maybe with new people ard, i will be cherished more. hopefully

2010-08-31T21:48:00.004+08:00

hmmmm... who's tt....

Early this morning,
Knocking on the door, "hello!!! deliveryy!"
ME yawninggg.... huh??

my hair still in a mess and went to open the door..
"hi there, good morning, i have a parcel for u"

he asked for my name and my signature.
yawn... i went back to sleep..

i woke up for lesson today.. reckoning what happen jus now..
oh, might jus be a dreamm.. i walk to the living room. and saw this parcel on the sofa.
hahahahhahaaa... this is sooo funnyyy... oommggg.. :PPP
what's in there... hmmmm.....
familar handwriting huh... :PPP
me and the parcel (after i wash up, ) hahahaha.. :PP
slowly opening the parcel....

ohmy goshhhh... snacksss and letterssss :))))

dont spend this money again okayy..

thanks POH TING TING AND NG LIU RONG for this parcel and the many many love tt is put into it.got really surprised and happy receiving it :))))

I love u many manyyy tooo =)))

Enjoying life's simple pleasure. :)

2010-08-31T20:15:00.002+08:00

i need a lighthouse to shine the way i'm taking.

2010-08-30T08:04:00.001+08:00

“The greater your capacity to love, the greater your capacity to feel the pain.”

Jennifer Aniston

we are all enrolled in the school called life. oh well... :)

2010-08-26T16:49:00.001+08:00

keeping a distance is to prevent others from hurting you, but most imptly, you from hurting anyone else.

2010-08-26T11:14:00.001+08:00

shld i even continue further.
dun wan the money being wasted again.

i always do stupid mistakes,
and the worse is, i always repeat the mistakes over and over again.

2010-08-25T22:46:00.001+08:00

msng, go listen to smile by uncle kracker. its a song
thanks to u. i smiled.

Its time, I shld move on.

when someone ignore ur feelings, its the time u shld ignore theirs too.
because there isnt a need to feel for them anymore.

2010-08-25T20:07:00.003+08:00

think the med is starting to work. :)
but then i need moree sleep.. LOL..

一直以来，我懂得自己不开心事不要麻烦人，
自卑和渺小的我，被开朗，永远开心的性格掩盖住了。
现在，我连装开心的选择也没了.
why am i always alone, i dont like being alone. i dun want to be alone.

2010-08-25T10:55:00.002+08:00

After this course of med, if i dun recover. i'm jus gonna ignore it alr.
dumb dumb

I'm always the source of unhappiness.
I shld stay away from ppl tt i care,
at least i know tt they will be happier w/o me ard. :)

2010-08-23T16:59:00.001+08:00

What have I done to ever deserve these

2010-08-22T21:07:00.004+08:00

I know worrying is a useless mood.
sometimes u know u cant help it but to worry.
some dumb stuff jus make u feel this dumb.
dumbdumbdumb...
okay, the awful cough syrup time. eiwww~

[PV] JUJU - Hello, Again～昔からある場所～ (Ballad Ver.)

2010-08-22T19:48:00.000+08:00

so touching. so sad..haiss

摄影真的是守着永恒的魔术吗？

Pianist Liu Wei(from Chinese talent show) eng sub

2010-08-19T21:07:00.000+08:00

thanks subha for sharing.
really love watching this kind of life story.
Though (as usual) i feel very sad for their situation,
it really does inspire me.. :))
at least to be stronger

love this quote tt one of the judge said
达人是用生命来展示他的才华，而不是在秀什么东西.
The best perform their talents with their lives.

2010-08-16T23:28:00.003+08:00

sometimes u will get lost, on the way to ur destination.
sometimes u jus need an extra hand to pull u back on track.

friends shld pass positive feelings to each other. thanks!

2010-08-15T22:12:00.001+08:00

life's a gift. you do not know how long you have, so laugh's lots, do lots. :)

2010-08-15T21:36:00.003+08:00

i dun like the taste of my new cough syrup..
ewww~

i really hope i'm as smart as some pple thought i am
then i dont have to work so hard for what is expected of me.

2010-08-15T20:34:00.000+08:00

do it once, do it nice
& we'll see

2010-08-14T19:42:00.001+08:00

Jus finished watching meet the robinsons.
nice show on tv.. i llike this kind of show.
v motivational.. :)))
keep moving foward.

but what future can i look foward to??

2010-08-12T22:23:00.002+08:00

I like EKKA fair. so many to see and so many things to buyyy.... but i didnt buy laa

2010-08-12T22:17:00.002+08:00

watched this cool documentary of this Concorde plane
called the rise and fall of concorde.
its quite awesome..
it can travel in the speed of sound and faster...
due to many factors it was later sort of being condemned.

jus one tragic accident, one mistake and fatal consequence.

to err is human.
but people usually rmb one major bad point and forgets all the goodness.
y so... hmmm...

2010-08-11T17:08:00.002+08:00

i will go make appointment to the dumb clinic tml. lol

2010-08-10T08:31:00.004+08:00

watching NDP makes me feels like home again.

saw mani marching, didnt able to spot my friend and my cousin.

might watch repeat telecast, if there is and if i m free, to look for them.
but after walking out of the theatre, i know i'm alone again.

still coughing. thinks it worsen.
dumb clinic, no appoinment until next monday.
crazy. mayb i might recover.
by then again, i have been coughing for weeks.
shit.

2010-08-08T14:35:00.002+08:00

I've never seen a real life dog competition b4 other than in discovery channel.
I've never seen a pregnant sheep giving birth. and having difficulties tt the vet has to lend her a hand. :P
Yst, I seen it all, in ekkar fair. so many things to look at. hmm.. nice :)

2010-08-05T00:15:00.001+08:00

Warren Street is full of sick people. literally. hahaha.

2010-08-02T20:48:00.001+08:00

sometimes u jus need to slow down and listen to what ur body wanna tell u.

2010-07-30T06:06:00.000+08:00

cough faster recover... i wan to donate blood laaa

2010-07-28T23:05:00.002+08:00

many things coming my wayyy!!
i know its hard, but i will try..
not a very good start. headache and coughing like madd..
but not tt bad too. had a great chat with mama and bro.
got call from *Eight* , knows ling is back home and safe and they're enjoying KFC. LOL. :)

gonna be a busy semester but i hope a fulfiling one.
Intro to Research is starting soon..
i know by then , i wont be as free..
but the day to home sweet home is nearing everydayyyyy :))

2010-07-25T21:53:00.000+08:00

school's tml . BOO!

2010-07-22T20:03:00.002+08:00

inapproachable and full of anger.
dont even recognise herself anymore.
why..

2010-07-21T06:52:00.002+08:00

dont regret at every step of your life.
i think i jus need more advices. :)

2010-07-18T21:59:00.002+08:00

2010-07-18T21:56:00.000+08:00

lonely.
yea, its jus another feeling.

2010-07-18T04:11:00.001+08:00

2010-07-18T04:05:00.003+08:00

yea. always choose to keep quiet instead of saying out loud
cos sometimes words influence by emotions dont usually mean they mean, and can be really nasty.
walk away and think abt it first. calm down is always the best move. :)

2010-07-17T16:32:00.002+08:00

2010-07-17T10:25:00.005+08:00

Sydneyy!!! went lots of places.. hm. dhall let the photos do the talking :P more to come :)

2010-07-16T19:23:00.002+08:00

dont know how to be a good friend.
i think i really sux at this

2010-07-15T09:40:00.002+08:00

Hi peepoS!
i'm backkk... yea, for quite some time already.
only have time to blog right now...

Sydney was quite fun with this huge grp of friends.
lotsof fun but some conflicts. oh well.. kinda expected smth like this would happen.
but tt will not spoil my mood of having fun k.
I love playing JUNGLE SPEED, eating chips, having drinks and watching soccer at night. LOL
went to lots of places, nearly covered the whole city area.
dun regret coming but i hope i have more time.

:)

2010-06-29T01:58:00.000+08:00

Sydney.. here we goooo... chucky's so cute.. wahahahahaaa...

so do i. :PPPPP

2010-06-27T22:26:00.003+08:00

Miss the times having campfire in HSS.

all these seems so impossible right now...

yea, i shldnt think of this stuff right now.
should be looking forward to sydney instead. =)

must thank yvonne for all these photos

never will i thought tt this will ever happen.
and given my distance, i will never be able to know they put this on the wall in HSS.
if ever, mrs yeo was able to see this...
jus randomly thought of her..

2010-06-26T13:39:00.010+08:00

24th of june
this is a super random trip, was only planning to go to harbortown to shop for winter clothing and food from sunnybank.
we made full use of the rented car. :P

Mt Coot-tha
look at the city lightings. so beautiful. its ard 10 plus already

Byron Bay

3 hours drive all the way.

cheers to the drivers : hs and jeff. thankss. whees~

reach there 4 plus. snack on chips and choc.

Awesome night sky.

stars and moon all so bright and pretty.

its so sad my camera arent good enough. :(

at least it looks good while taking sun rise :)

its so sad there were dark clouds :(

no egg yolk shaped sun.

we survived

the first lighthouse i saw in my life :)

everything here looks like a paint. a really beautiful portrait :)

i witness a wedding there tooo. hahaa.. i have no idea who the bride or the groom is. wahahahaha :P

cant bear to leave tt place :(

25th june

Breakfast
pancake cafe :))

2010-06-26T12:43:00.003+08:00

Dreamworld on the 23rd. :]
seems like another zoo trip or smth. hahhaaha. cos wasnt feeling well tt day. oh well.. had fun though :)

one flock of ducks on the roof top. super cute la :P

look at the rats. :P

this cute little boy came to me while i was resting... circling ard this pole and eating his chips, jus right beside me :)) so adorable .

2010-06-25T10:26:00.003+08:00

Byron Bay sunrise was truly awesome :)
i LOVE LOVE to look at the night sky while lying down.
will be one of the things i will never forget over here :)

2010-06-23T10:55:00.002+08:00

everything passes so fast.
19th marks the end of my examinations.
all the best to all those still having papers.
hope for the best =))))

7th july. i wanna be lucky. hahaha!
i hope tt day is a happy day =))

2010-06-21T12:55:00.002+08:00

i need someone who really knows me.
if u persist , i might come. at least i know u care.
mayb my barrier is too tough tt nobody wanna tries.

i know you are there. :)

2010-06-21T04:56:00.000+08:00

its disappointing.
i've put my priorities wrong all the while.
till now then i start realising

2010-06-17T08:01:00.001+08:00

pray hard for the next 3 papers...
one day one paper. omg.
pray hard it comes out what i studied :PP

2010-06-16T07:10:00.000+08:00

hungryyyy..
cant wait fir 19th :P

2010-06-13T06:00:00.002+08:00

i hate good byes. =((

send my brother offf this morning. damn, i dunno why its so saddening.

but read subha's blog i'mhappier again :)
thanks!!!

you will really feel the difference

2010-06-12T07:32:00.001+08:00

today marks the first day of exam
plss let it be good :)

2010-06-10T09:30:00.001+08:00

random thoughts of home. not exactly home, home.
but the path i took to go home,
ard TBP
the path i walk from work , ard sgh,.
to nuh..
i dunno la..
LOL!

2010-06-08T11:44:00.001+08:00

Faith comes from within :)

like every other things, u need to believe to succeed.