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Tuesday, June 30, 2009


forget to draft b4 i send. omg. lol. but nvm, i shall draft it again soon. this will tell who really takes time to read it loh. haha

the first time i ever look up to the drizzling sky and hopes a lightning strikes on me at 1826 . I know it will stops me to ever feel again, but i cannot be selfish.

Subha u dun worry, u will be fine =)
thanks li mei , meet u girls some time soon k? misses


aiming for the sky above;
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Monday, June 29, 2009


my life is like in a mess if you really think abt it.

maybe some times life will still be like tt no matter how hard you try.


aiming for the sky above;
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Saturday, June 27, 2009


I dont see myself anywhere 5 years down the road.
I dont really know what I want to do.
I think I will just stay in this pathetic little island first
I just know that I dont want to be stuck in a cage
I dont need the fame, I want to do smth BIG

So many ppl at home but i cant find someone to talk to me abt this


aiming for the sky above;
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i just feel like a burden


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Friday, June 26, 2009


The saddest 2 words in the English language 'what if'
I dont want regrets.
i fear unfamilarity.





Tank - 如果我變成回憶 [Ru Guo Wo Bian Cheng Hui Yi] [If I Became A Memory]
Album: 第三回合/The 3rd Round
Songwriter: Tank
Lyricist: 陳信廷 Chen XinTing

累了 照慣例努力清醒著 也照慣例想妳了
好怕一放心睡了 心跳在夢中不聽話的 就停止了


聽著 呼吸像浪潮拍動著 越美麗越讓我忐忑
我還能珍惜什麼 如果我連自己的脈搏 都難掌握

如果我變成回憶 退出了這場生命
留下妳錯愕哭泣 我冰冷身體 擁抱不了妳
想到我讓深愛的妳 人海孤獨旅行

我會恨自己 如此狠心


如果我變成回憶 終於沒那麼幸運
沒機會白著頭髮 蹣跚牽著妳 看晚霞落盡
漫長時光 總有一天 妳會傷心痊癒

若有人可以 讓他陪妳 我不怪妳

快樂 什麼時候會結束呢 哪一刻是最後一刻
想把妳緊緊抱著 可知妳是我生命中的 最捨不得

如果我變成回憶 退出了這場生命
留下妳錯愕哭泣 我冰冷身體 擁抱不了妳
想到我讓深愛的妳 人海孤獨旅行
我會恨自己 如此狠心


如果我變成回憶 終於沒那麼幸運
沒機會白著頭髮 蹣跚牽著妳 看晚霞落盡
漫長時光 總有一天 妳會傷心痊癒
若有人可以 讓他陪妳 我不怪妳


如果我變成回憶 最怕我太不爭氣
頑固地賴在空氣 霸佔妳心裡 每一吋縫隙
連累依然愛我的妳 痛苦承受失去
這樣不公平 請妳盡力 把我忘記


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HAPPY FIFTEEN BIRTHDAY TO SHUYU
&
HAPPY SEVENTEEN BIRTHDAY TO SUZANNAH


look atr their presents :) look alike right. heheheh




trying to get shuyu face, see rajes beside her so poor thing. hahahhahashe showing the plastic bag for the present.. hahahah

at last one without the plastic bag blocking de...
i thought they were close. i thought.


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JB trip is a good relaxing time la. maybe longer timing will be better loh. was chhoosing the uni thingy with mc. dunno why talk abt family i jus feel pissed off and jus simply sian. like no positive feelings at all. nvm la. but i had fun. dun believe whatever mc post on fb k. she jus keep taking me eating. then take photo without me knowing and say i got a lot of funny stupid expression. damn. and its with her can. somehow knew it will be posted somewhere somehow. LOL

wanna gooooooooooo outttttttttt offffffffffffffff SG again.........

why am i always stuck in the middle all the time.


aiming for the sky above;
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Monday, June 22, 2009


School will go on as per normal ;)


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best buy. 2 tickets for the price of one ;)

drinking may not be the best way, but at least it feels like it.


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come on. sing K la. haha.







JH jus for you de. learn dance steps k.hahaha.. i am awaiting. :P LOL


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Sunday, June 21, 2009


"Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions." (Rainer Maria Rilke - Austro-German lyric poet, author of Duino Elegies and Sonnets to Orpheus, 1875-1926)


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I want it to my own pace.
I dont want anything to be affected.
I just want to do it when i want to.

I think i need a break. soon.


aiming for the sky above;
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Saturday, June 20, 2009


at last the 7 Scb came out. ahahaha...
jus so shiok that my direction was correct :) haha.. Bakerzin food not bad, the dessert is better.
saw the poem on the menu , it goes smth like tt

friends are like dessert,
it is always there whether u are happy or sad
when u are sad, it can perks u up
when u are happy, it will indulge with u in happiness

yeah. looking forward for the next one. ;)
Maybe i'm not a good enough leader for ppl to follow. i'm quite hurt actually, but i know its her choice. i dont want her in difficult position, i shall keep silent. smtimes laughing doesn;t mean u are happy and crying means u are sad. i dunno why it can be so complicated.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHEENA!!!

AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHUKYIII


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~ { @ 11:17:00 AM }
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Friday, June 19, 2009


-cooling period-

i think i can do it. i just need some time. and definitely much more support. :)

i need more sleep to think properly, everything in my mind now is all negative feelings


aiming for the sky above;
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~ { @ 12:03:00 AM }
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Thursday, June 18, 2009


I finish the pieces of shit at last.

i will not sacrifise anymore. no more,nothing more. the healer needs to be heal.

The harder the conflict, the more glorious the triumph. What we obtain too cheap, we esteem too lightly; it is dearness only that gives everything its value. I love my soul that can smile in trouble, that can gather strength from distress and grow brave by reflection. When the heart is firm, and whose conscience approves his conduct, will pursue his principles no matter what.


aiming for the sky above;
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When things start to move away from u, start to fade away. Sometimes u thought tt u have forgotten abt it, it seems like it do not hold any significance to u anymore. But the time when u see it, u will realise how much u really miss it.
The days tt has gone and nvr to come back again. I'm glad tt, at the point of time, i cherished it. Since it has gone, I will keep in in my heart as a memory forever.

the feeling of going back to NUH once again is good :)

dont like the feeling of loneliness and nobody backing u up (i know i shld not ask help from her anymore , she is really busy), who doesn't want to just be a follower.


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~ { @ 12:07:00 AM }
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Wednesday, June 17, 2009


I dont really think the job is for me. though it went on quite well. all seems so far..


aiming for the sky above;
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Tuesday, June 16, 2009


tml is the day.

i dunno what i shld do, what i shld choose...


aiming for the sky above;
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~ { @ 9:24:00 PM }
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Monday, June 15, 2009


02:28:56 + more more hours. LOL. who can set a higher record mann. OMG.

haha, overslept for work today... gotten a job offer. now i really dunno what to do. hmm.

sometimes some sick-in-the-mind things will really make you priortise some things upfront, rather than thinking it over the years and you wil nvr get an answer..


aiming for the sky above;
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~ { @ 9:13:00 PM }
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Sunday, June 14, 2009


went chilling jus now with ScBs. haha.. at holland V. holland V a lot of angmohs loh. went to eat and drink loh. only i drink la, so sad. :P pauline not there loh if not ScBs is complete. haha.

went to wala wala, quite a cool name ah.. thanks tong for treating fries and wings and of cos recommending the place . :P the drinks quite cheap leh, seriously. johnny walker black quite good eh. i went seh seh for a while. had mad pie at coffee club. went home after tt.. talked cock a bit la.

watched star world or smth sports channel in wala wala. rmb andy murray, recommended by jh. 3rd in the world for tennis. not bad la. quite handsome. lol. jh sports knowledge not bad la, but i think she only watch becos of all the yan dao sportsman. then at the same time get to know abt the sports. heheehe

going back to sleep now. omg. i slept for ard 17 hours (see when i can beat this record again :P) . last night 10plus sleep until today 3plus.omg.. only wake up to go toilet then go back to sleep, no dream nth. think i'm really tired. now going to go back to sleep alrd. omg.. waking up for ard 10hours later i'm going back to sleep. jialat.


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~ { @ 12:43:00 AM }
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Saturday, June 13, 2009








happy birthday babababababababa.... on the tenth (yeah, my lappy's one key is spoilt) of june... went on to flyerrr....
the crazy ppl.


the at last nineteen years old babani. hahahaha... HAPPY BIRTHDAY BAVANI......... :)

cool ah. :P


the view is magnificient. the flyer itself loooks cool alr... i wanna go up there again. maybe at night the next time round. :)

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Friday, June 12, 2009



"Someone should tell us, right at the start of our lives, that we are dying. There we might live life to the limit, every minute of every day. DO it! I say. Whatever you want to do,do it now! There are only so many tomorrows."


aiming for the sky above;
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~ { @ 11:29:00 AM }
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Thursday, June 11, 2009


Because when you become an Officer, you will have minimal GUIDANCE, minimal MOTIVATION and minimal room for ERROR, in exchange of maximum RESPONSIBILITY, maximum EXPECTATION and maximum CRITIC or CRITICISM (All eyes are at you).

when you become an Officer, you will have to lead your team and train them to perform tasks as a team. You will be a coach, a facilitator, a trainer, a friend and a mentor. These roles require training ability and development skills, in order to build your NCOs and junior Officers.


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Wednesday, June 10, 2009


One day, when I was a freshman in high school,


I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school.


His name was Kyle.

It looked like he was carrying all of his books.


I thought to myself, 'Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday?


He must really be a nerd.'


I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friends tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on.

As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him.

They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt.


His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten feet from him...


He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes



My heart went out to him. So, I jogged over to him as he crawled around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eye.


As I handed him his glasses, I said, 'Those guys are jerks.'



They really should get lives.



' He looked at me and said, 'Hey thanks!'


There was a big smile on his face.



It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude.


I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived.


As it turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him why I had never seen him before..


He said he had gone to private school before now.


I would have never hung out with a private school kid before.



We talked all the way home, and I carried some of his books.


He turned out to be a pretty cool kid.


I asked him if he wanted to play a little football
with my friends


He said yes.


We hung out all weekend and the more I got to know Kyle, the more I liked him, and my friends thought the same of him.


Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the huge stack of books again.


I stopped him and said, 'Boy, you are gonna really build some serious muscles with this pile of books everyday!


' He just laughed and handed me half the books.




Over the next four years, Kyle and I became best friends...


When we were seniors we began to think about college.


Kyle decided on Georgetown and I was going to Duke.


I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never be a problem.


He was going to be a doctor and I was going for business on a football scholarship. .



Kyle was valedictorian of our class.

I teased him all the time about being a nerd.



He had to prepare a speech for graduation.


I was so glad it wasn't me having to get up there and speak


Graduation day, I saw Kyle.

He looked great.

He was one of those guys that really found himself during high school.


He filled out and actually looked good in glasses.


He had more dates than I had and all the girls loved him.


Boy, sometimes I was jealous!


Today was one of those days.


I could see that he was nervous about his speech.


So, I smacked him on the back and said, 'Hey, big guy, you'll be great!'

He looked at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled.


' Thanks,' he said.


As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and began


'Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years.


Your parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach...but mostly your friends....


I am here to tell all of you that being a friend to someone is the best gift you can give them.

I am going to tell you a story.'


I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the
first day we met.

He had planned to kill himself over the weekend.




He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have to do it later and was carrying his stuff home.

He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile.


'Thankfully, I was saved.


My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable. .'

I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome, popular boy told us all about his weakest moment.


I saw his Mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile.


Not until that moment did I realize it's depth.

Never underestimate the power of your actions..

With one small gesture you can change a person's life.

For better or for worse.

God puts us all in each others lives to impact one another in some way.

Look for God in others.

'Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly.'





There is no beginning or end.. Yesterday is history.





Tomorrow is a mystery.





Today is a gift.


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~ { @ 9:54:00 PM }
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Tuesday, June 09, 2009


Death is inevitable, just need to face it bravely.

sometimes i would rather jus pissed everyone off and they forced me to leave.


aiming for the sky above;
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~ { @ 11:07:00 PM }
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Sunday, June 07, 2009


friday straight after work , had dinner with fyp peeps. hahaha... and drink at tcc.. haha. funny la.. more outings mann.. weeS.
my graduation photo came alrd. woohooo~ damn cool right.. :P




Sunday Public duty at flyer.
with cockroach feeler... hahaha.. nerissa and willie.
LOL. i wanna go to flyer, like now??~


she never knew abt this. haha.. she is the special order from mcdonald. hehehehhee..


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~ { @ 3:32:00 PM }
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at least the 2 who went tried their upmost effort. :) both taking leadership roles in the camp :)

to be a good leader, your endurance mus be a certain level.
i'm actually quite proud of them :)


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~ { @ 7:57:00 AM }
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surrounded by ppl but empty deep inside. thinking some unrelated stuff. I thought that i was brave but i dont even have the courage to show my emotions. And ya, I can really be annoyingly positive sometimes.

一个人的时候,可以是寂寞也可以是自由

silly and goofy. I think i shld change the impression i give others. I'm a deep thinker, which is like the total opposite. makes me real tired sometimes. but maybe tt''s the reason why pple hang out with me. :(


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Saturday, June 06, 2009


actually quite sad and sian. look at anco number of trainees.
see jus hss, the number of seniors involved and the number of trainees. senior so many, trainees like 2? what shit is tt..

ok fine


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Tuesday, June 02, 2009


life in a mess..

come on come on, organise organise... ~


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yo... mr kevin farewell dinner.
here's the guy.. LOL
They just keep laughing laa..





lol.. today camwhoring. LOL. ...


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covering her acne. LOL


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Singing K box is jus so fun cann.. LOL..
JH:u can sing grasshopper song next time plus the dance moves ok!? hahhahaaa....

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sometimes its good to just be ignored and forgotten.


have a sudden urge of going back to study... have been eating chocolate, hopefully making me happier.


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~ { @ 1:30:00 PM }
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Monday, June 01, 2009


the pple who knows me, know my abillity, my capability and what i will give my best for.
if you ever stop and think in my shoes , if only u did tt.

i may not be better than the first one, but i did try. my life dun revolve ard Z only. do have my own life, my family, my work. if u dun appreciate my effort for the past 3 years then so be it. i cant be bothered abt it anymore. and nvr ever earn my respect to u. the only reason i have been respectful is only because u are older than me, ( n by right the life experience will be more than me).
try and be in my position, i dun think u can even be half as good as me. seriously. rank is what u get, respect is what u earn.

I know tt will nvr be my priority again. mayb not corps. but definitlely for Z. let it be ..... i dun give a bloody farking...


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