si bei sian... restless.. bored.. tired.. lerthagic... any word that mean sian describes me now.

all alone in the student room. (ok. actually quite glad that i'm alone, if junior batch is here to disturb me i will be even more sian) enjoy being alone but I am tired.!!

waiting for the 2 hours incubation time to end. just dun feel like doing anything regarding my studies.....

started to believe that sometimes, dream will always be a dream.

-disappointment-

hais.

(: SYF Opening Ceremony 2008

http://hendersonsjab.multiply.com/photos/album/31

all your hard work has paid off ah.. so many hss pple come to support you all. hmm hmm. must be very proud and honoured bah. actual day even VP and P are there to view the performance. glad to say that our performance is the best out of all (same category de la)

Enjoyed the band performances, the band major's uniform is so cool.. the sound is solid one ok.. dont seems like there is any mic around. if so, every member must play loud and must be correct. if not, surely, the mistake is obvious la. but the music is EXCELLENT!!!!

marching in was great. hmm, flag escort from hss and 3 SJAB cadets from HSS, my EXCOs leh. zai ah~ qian ai, clement and alex. (:

very disappointed with one thing i observed today. someone who is popular, well liked by peers, seniors, juniors. being bossy, demanding.. u are being well liked partially because u are one of the best among your peers, but your respectful and jovial character is the main thing why we adore u so much.

Being a senior, i do need to change u. but i hope i do not need to come into this point where i need to talk to u one to one. I'm know i'm not a very good friend myself to correct him/her but i'm glad fortunate enough to have a group of bestie best friends that even we dont meet for so long they will still understand. being undertanding is very important among friends... no matter how well-liked person u are, demanding, bossy person, all your friends will slowly disappear from your life. and u will realise u are alone.

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another thing, every woman have the naturally thing to care for everything around them. they will be, or is alr or going to be, a mother within their lifetime, majority. no matter how they behave, their way of speech. they still care de. maybe a lot, certain extent or a bit. they still care abt you somehow and wan u to be successful, esp if they are teachers (:

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHU YU, AND ADVANCED BIRTHDAY FOR SUZANNAH.!!

& HAPPY SJAB DAY

really proud of my cadets today. (not those without uniform) and its most of my sec 1s. OMG!!!

& my exco and junco who came back during the holidays to settle uniform, ensure attendance, plan out the whole ceremony, changes and more changes, but not complaining, (most) and practising for the ceremony again and again to perfect it!

I'm really happy to see all of us, working hard for a common goal. making this day a success. I'm glad to have told my supervisor that i'll be going to do my fyp at 10 instead and be able to attend this day. :))))))))))))

photos: http://hendersonsjab.multiply.com/photos/album/30/St.John_Day_24062008

very sleepy~ maybe sleep too late yst and wake up too early today le. but I'm still very x10000 happy =) even angie(w unifrom), jasmine teo (w uniform)and yuan ting attended. quite satisfied le =))
disappointed with some of those in the squad without uniform, got one of the EXEXCO. hais.. she is one of the not so bad one ok.. mixed feelings la. if she come, i think i will feel much much better.


ST JOHN DAY 2008
24 JUNE 2008

MESSAGE FROM DR CHEN SZE HUA
CHIEF COMMISSIONER
ST JOHN AMBULANCE BRIGADE


Principals, Teachers, St. John Ambulance Brigade Officers, St. John Cadets, Badgers and Students,


1 Today is St. John Day and we are joining the St. John Brigade Members and Badgers in the Commonwealth to celebrate the birth of the St. John movement.

2 The St. John Movement has more than 900 years of history. St. John seeks to help the sick and injured, regardless of nationality, race or religion. Our motto “For the Service of Mankind” constantly reminds us of our mission and our role. In this rapidly changing world, we should keep abreast of the changes in the world as well as happenings around us so that we can keep pace by reviewing our vision and our responsibilities.

3 Though Singapore is free from natural disasters and calamities, we must always prepare ourselves and be ready at all times to extend our service and assistance to those in need and distress. In fulfilling our motto and role as a caring and responsible citizen, we must constantly update and upgrade ourselves in first aid knowledge and skill and encourage those around us to join us in first aid training. We should also seek opportunities to be a part of the management team in public first aid and put our first aid skills into practice.

4 St. John Ambulance Brigade is a believer in the importance of instilling a set of core values in our cadets. Our members are taught not just to lead but also to put the interests of the community before self. A life that is centered on self, no matter how rewarding, is ultimately an empty one. However, our aims and actions, no matter how altruistic, may not serve the community well if we are out of synchronisation with the contemporary environment. Therefore, in collaboration with the grassroots’ organisations, we have introduced first aid with CPR cum AED trainings to the Community Centres and Clubs.

5 The St. John Movement provides opportunities for personal development, character building and leadership training like those in other uniformed groups. This is the first step in life towards serving our Nation. Our proficiency badges scheme offers you opportunities to learn new skills, to serve our community and participate in international friendship programmes through the range of activities provided by your school units. I hope you will make good use of these opportunities given to you.

6 I would like to take this opportunity to pay tribute to the principals and teachers who play a very important role in preparing our cadets and badgers to be all-rounded citizens. Your strong support and commitment is the motivating factor to the success of the St. John activities. We value your partnership for the service of mankind.

7 Thank you.

=)

The hungry us. hehe.. we in Mcdonalds eating their spicy burger, so shiok la.The nicest place throughout the trip. The hill top where St. Paul's church is located.
scene looking down from the hilltop. inside the church. its kind of being ruin. but it still look grand and goreous. I think i saw it somewhere ini discovery channel before, regretted not rmbing the stuff being told in the tv. i am kind of curious actually.
some of the graves.
the guy making the necklance. its really nice.


oh, did i tell u that we are in Malaysia Chinese newspaper. isn't that cool! Woo~
new cool peeps i know from the exchange. =)

I always forgeting to take notice of things and people around me. Just engross myself with what I need to do, forgot about those that are always by my side.

went through the trip cause me to reflect.

my life is like a speeding train, even though passing by so many nice scenery, I never thought of stopping by and enjoy them. but just continue with my journey. maybe a life of a student in SG, is all like that. When we are young, we are taught to study study study, CCA, CCA, CCA. get good grades. when we grow older, study, work, study, work, projects, test, exam, blah blah blah. and the list goes on.

What did i do this holiday? and its like ended. lol. but at least there is this trip. hm. time well spent i guess (:

less than a year more, gonna graduate le. still do not have a plan after graduation.. hais.

Throughout the 4D 3N in malacca. day 2 is the most emotionally heavy day and maybe the day where all of us, are giving at their unmost effort.

Day 2, had a really scaring PT, someone fell. its really tiring day I have to admit. nearly all the graduates had many other activities before this overseas trip. Our last bit of strength to keep ourselves awake and surviving. I really got shocked , very scary~ please do not do stunt next time. aha.

But, still all of us make our way to the Orphanage together. 'Sri Krishna Ashram Orphanage’.

THe caretaker over there introduce us to the orphanage, what they do and stuff like tt. many din really care what he was talking. just very anxious and excited but really afraid that we can't have fun together.


Spilt into 3 groups, led by a indian student/senior in each group. Most of them didn't really know how to speak English clearly or don't understand English. One of our fear, is not to be able to speak to them.

but after some time. I guess FUN is a universal thing. no words or actions can describe. after introducing their names to us, and ours to them, we started playing games.! everybody is so into it, even though we can't understand each other that well. We played like there is no language barrier at all.

wacko! haha.

something I observe, the older one though seems like those cant be bothered kind, they actually care about the young ones. No matter how hard the young one hit them, for wacko, surprsingly, jus let them hit, they can actually be quite violent. and jus carry on with the game. (thinking back in SG, some siblings just a harder pat on the back can start a fight. i cant understand how fussy can they be).


We continued playing games.

Then, tea time! yummy bee hoons and coffee. the coffee was like, hm hm~~ tasty! never drink such nice coffee. so smooth, so frangrance. thumbs up! 3 cups. shiok ah!

then ms kc said that we need to leave very soon after tea break for the next destination. everybody was like 'HUH!?!?!?!?!?! why so early' even me la, just that i never say it out cos i drinking coffee =P

cos of the response from all of us, we got extension time. ! yeah! we eat and drink fast. got back to play with them again! this time round really cherish last few moments there in the orphanage.
ms kc started the spinning thingy, guys there know what's tt la.. then the piggyback rides started too. piggybacking them going around the place. all of us enjoyed it so much.

WHile playing, some of them fell, one more thing i observed their friends will always be the first to crowd around them. they always try to 'sayang' them. and seems like saying 'hey, you gonna be alright' kind of words. They cared for each other so much unconditionally, even encouragae each other. The one who fell will always stand up so quickly. They are really hardy and tough kids. =)

This bond was forge the time we got there and it grew stronger, the longer we stayed and played with them. & when we got warmed up and so close with them. Its difficult to leave now. Some at the verge of tears, a handful cried, others, endured the tears.


It is when you face the harmless, purest and the most innocent them that all of us showed our real true nature. And I believe that everybody in this world has a good nature. I have seen the few of the naughtier ones, giving them piggyback ride, carrying them, giving big hugs, showing care to them and showering them with all our love, using up all our energy.

I'm really proud of them.

was then told by the teacher.

the boy on the right, in orange. his mum came to see him, just for a while. He has a mother, but he was being left there for some reasons. In his mind, what will he think? so young yet he need to handle emotions like this. This Orphanage, has us as the 5th batch of volunteers to play with them. but his mother, came to visit him this one time since like how long ago. After a while, his mum left, he just sit aside at a corner where everybody else is outside the room having fun. What is swirling in his mind that point of time?

One of the boys, got cane marks at their back. abused? no. that is the way how they disciplined. Nobody can take care of them. only the caretaker in the orphanage. All boys, growing up period, their most rebelious age. Older bullying younger? Setting their position in the place. It might happen. A country needs law and a school needs rules.

But, think again, orphans have no parents alr, no one really care for them, and those take care oof them for their necessities needs to take care of everybody else. How lost will they feel. How many of them will get all the love they need?

volunteers batch by batch, come and go. who will really stand by them. We wanted to help, but what can we do?

They can only depend on themselves.

They seems so happy on the surface when they are with us, deep down in their hearts, how they feel? We won't know, even we try to understand it, we will never feel how they felt.
All my prayers to them. Hope to see 1 or 2 of them in the future, be a useful member of the society. We hope for the best for them. strive for the best (:

We dragged some time, cos really cant bear to leave them. but eventually, all of us board the bus.

Going on to the disabled home.
Have to admit that I was really really scare. really afraid of them, I have never have anytime to interact with mentally disabled pple. Scared, but trying not to show. my juniors are there. I have to show a role model.

Walk around to see their living condition as compared to our own house, theirs are below average. On the second level, there were many metal bars at the windows, looks like a prison, but it was for their safety sake.

The caretaker told us that some of the mentally disabled children were found tied to a tree, outside their house and was brought back to the Disabled Home. They do not know how to think, but if you treat them well, they too will treat you well.

In the Home, all the physically able people were trained to be independent. They were taught how to wash their clothes, hang their clothes to dry, fold their clothes and so on, partially because of the lack of manpower and financial support.

We had fun coloring with some of the physically more abled ones. and hopefully our dance were entertaining enough for the others. I can say we tried our best for the first time visiting. hope they dont feel our fear.

I did not know that there was a 17 year old boy who was born without his eyes was in the Home when we visited them. I really want to know their life was. He was fit other then his sense of sight. How would he feel? He can feel the sympathy and the coloured opinions the public give him. His 17 years of like went through more than the 18 year old me. I really cherish my parents with me and being mentally and physically fit. But what can he do? learn to get use to his disability? He can think like us. Me and his age is just one year difference. I will nver be able to go through what he has.

During the last hour in the Disabled Home, I saw a 5 year old mentally disabled child, he was eating biscuits and I tried to communicate with him. I played with him till we were going to leave. I wanted to take a photo with him so I carried him in my arms. Unknowingly where or what he is doing, he kissed me on my cheek, I was surprise and happy at the same moment. I kissed him back on his cheeks too. He just made my day and he may not know.

Who will make his day? Trapped in a house for the next few decades, grow old and die in the same place? He will not be able to study without a huge sum of money to go to a special school; he will not travel out of Malaysia, unlike me. He still has a long way to go, to live. Always depend on the home to support him?

I am really fortunate to be normal, getting education, have family living with me, able to understand, speak and write. They are not disabled; they are just more special than the normal people.

Both places, I had a hard time leaving. thinking of them can really make me cry. but at least i tried to endure.

End off with this song, knew this song for very long, but heard it in my ipod during the bus ride on the way back to SG. had a lot of time. its raining and dark. the atmosphere just makes me feel like reflecting what I've done the past 4d3n.

Tiring, but a fufilling trip. hope this is jus the beginning of my exploring to less deveoped countries to help the people there.

歌名：我们不哭

歌手：周华健 所属专辑：雨人

我们不哭 在分开 的场面
我们拥抱 弥补所有 的抱歉
没有遗憾 今天是 最好的句点
以後还能一起 面对面

我们不哭 在回家後的房间
承受能让 所有伤痛少一点
没有眼泪 并不代表 爱很浅
而是懂得 微笑著让彼此 怀念

hello. I'm back (: from mawai lama. cool place, told to have no mosquito, but i still kena bitten, swollen feet .LOL . instructors are very funny pple. one lame lecturer!

anw, i enjoyed the camp lah. the BEEF there is shiok de loh, super yummy. chicken oso not bad. and orange juice. hehe. i still have one bottle with me! haha..

very leisure camp loh. no need to rush for time or rush pple for time.. so relaxing la.. can nua all the time. sleep until u enough la.. not all the activity is complusory la, maybe for the mountain, i mean hill climbing.

hill climbing , climb up 40 min, down 1.5 hr, somemore got river crossing. damn shoe, blister like hell, but lucky, did fall lah.

star gazing anf firefly curise is the best man! i like the breeze and the bright stars on the sky. look goregous.!

only got one jr need to send to clinic, but small injury only la. clinic no business means good lah..

cab my way home with sk(jr ambulance, haha) and hx.


getting ready for tml's trip (:

thanks pam's friend/relative from donating the cute little bear bear. took photo with my phone and little red dot. (:

ok. we do get bored sometimes. LOL!

So happy tt our collection so last minute, yet so successful. yippe!! happy happy! (: thanks ling for the help, though its late, but better than never. hee.~