i dunno whether is the mud cherry made me so SUAYthis 2 days...

yst, my bro (in army tt one) got into A&E, cos his vechicle tumble over.. haiz.. but he seems better today...

aiyo, today oso, got classmate not feeling well, quite jialat... but feeling better..
another friend was there, is like snatching to help, when the nurse and doc from HS was there.. haiz...
like what james always say, 'clever can already, dun act clever'...

but ultimately is the person, who dun feel well, gets better.. its enough already.. hope she take care of herself...


SUAY KA LAO SAI, hope tml will be better...

my new favorite from donut factory...

DOUBLE CHOCOLATE.... yummy!!!!!!

the chocolate jus ooze out of the donut when i take a bit from it... omg.... yumyum...

always envy pple who is older, can do whatever they like, whatever they want...

but i dunno why, i have more burdens the older i get.. and the more i need to hide my emotions.. I ike being young, innocent and being loved by so many.. feel whatever i wanna feel, when i am happy, i can smile, laugh, and when i am sad, i can cry, when i am angry, i can scream and shout...

it is always hidden for some reasons and often for the better, may not be better for me, but better for the majority.. aha, sounds like i am so great, but i am not, seriously not...

To show the true self, needs courage, a courage tt i dun possess. a strength tt i hope to have..

I do need privacy, but i do need pple to care, to a extend tt dun exceed my limits.. which a lot of them dunno, or dun wan to know, whichever...

sometimes, i jus need anyone to quietly sit beside me and enjoy the company..

jus came back not long from NBSS la... got NCO campfire loh.. very funny performances lah... its entertaining la..

but some parts of the planning in NCO i not happy with, but what can i do... haiya.... look at the happy side la... its alright, if actually my cadets are ok.. nth matters more... they gonna jia you.. last night le, like so sian le.. aiyo..

everything gonna end le... good job bavani, fahmy, and pei rong(dunno she will see a not, but ya lah,) all the trainers and departments la... haha... tough job huh...

same phase lah, "IS LIKE THAT ONE" lol...

last day loh... the toughest day lah, hiking at 3am.. shiok sia.. haha... surely have hike de loh, everytime like tt.. is a matter of the timing la...

aiya, forget to take photos with them ah... aiyo.. forgetful sia...

anw, gonna sleep le.. niteS..

woah, psle top scorer this yr is from st hilda's pri. 294... cool seh.. new record for SG.. jus another 6 marks and its full marks!!?

lol... cant believe i am exactly 100 marks lesser, when i got my psle score... haha... hard work pays off.. i admit.. i dun study in primary school de loh.. =P but luckily got in express bah, in the school of my last choice... and i'm glad i was taught by teachers tt doesn't slack... and great classes in secondary school, tt makes me what i am today. of cos plus lots of hard work (in sec sch only la)aha...

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23/11/2007
Ms chandran going back to NZ loh, came to send her off lah, but actually is she wanna brief me abt some of the stuff in SJ lah... haha... lol... reluctant to go loh.. but nvm la... so went to send her, ling sms me after tt, then went to send her together with me loh...

We went to eat POPEYE!!!!!! so so long didn't eat tt le, i missed tt a lot a lot... is still so yummy as ever... hehe...

saw ms chin oso.. with her *ahemm* =P i ask her who is he, she dun wan to say loh, then she say think whatever u wan, aahaha, i tell her my imagination is running wild alr.. lol... =PP
so i jus presume loh.. ;)

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watch midnight show with Raf, HX, BS, Rees, giam, LY loh.. the tattooist... so so lah.. take photos while waiting for the movie to start loh.. waiting for rees to send me!!!!!
the movie actually not very scary lah, IS ONLY GROSS only..!!! ok!?? with all the cutting and knocking sound.. eeii.... =PP

0005 watch till abt 2+ bah.... all so sleepy le... the sian face all shown liao... haha... dun have night rider to go back home loh.. end up in cab loh... with hx..

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24/11

got BB primers lah, aga 7am need to wake up... then yst sleep at abt 2.30 or 3.00 am loh... so tired.. nearly cant wake up... LY cant pull herself out from her bed.. ahaa....

think i saw don and ya yun, with different group of pple lah... not sure whether s them a no loh.. cos i was super tired lah, cos not enough sleep and accumulate from the one long week..

its abt collecting food items for the needy under the assistance from the govt de, smth like tt...

STILL VERY VERY TIRED AND SLEEPY!! *yawnnnn***

tml got campfire somemore, ho seh ah... >.<"

its another sleepy lecture day...
REES! get well soon & cya tml...

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really sleepy today lah, nearly sleep in front of dr roland's lecture =P and i am one chair away from him only... opps... but his lecture is the last one.. so cannot blame me la...haha..

28/11 -> Haema ppt
5/12 -> Mircobio ppt
7/12 -> Chem ppt

17/12 -> Mid Sem Exam

Come peeps, lets JIA YOU together... =D

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Hmmm... shld i go for YEP ?? maybe this is the last chance le..

.. but no one accompany me.. so sad~
.. i can know friends from there oso mah.. i seriously afraid of loneliness, 13 days leh.. in a foreign country, a foreign place, at least with pple i know, i may feel better..
.. i wan to complete NYAA gold..... hmm...

can someone let me feel smth else other than disappointment...

is all the promises for real?? i hope it is.. its not the first time, and i hope now, its the last.. i dunno in the past, am i right to give in, or i shld demand for the respect..

*CONFUSED & TIRED*

the closest people in my life, can't even truly understand me.. maybe cos they're not in a same organisation, tt i was for years..
and those friend in the same organisation, never think at my position, maybe cos they're younger.. & maybe cos i dun share much.. Even if i share, will they care?

wahhh... super super tired today...


It seems like the main character other than Nerissa... wahahaa..



when i free then edit the photo kieS? meanwhile jus look at these and think of ME.... xP i know u love the celebration a lot... especially when u're hit by the WATER BOMBS!!!!!!!!!! wahahaa.... I have really great ideas hor.. i'm so proud of myself........ wahhahahahaaa.....

utterly disappointed with some pple.. all along thought that they are the best, and were always giving their best... .but i was totally wrong... how can a best be like these... actually some of the things, u jus use your common sense and some flexiblity.. it is easily understandable and workable...

feeling shity right now =/

please do not disturb...

JAPANESE CURRY RICE have laughing spices, dun take if u dun want tummy ache.. lol...



think of it now, i will still laugh lah.. is like so WRONG saying these during lunch time... hello, its like lunch time.. focus eating tasting.. lol...


i jus super super funny until my face go red, and i nearly spit out the food in my mouth... so UNGLAM!!!!! lol..
(refer to rees' blog for more.. cant rmb!! he actually noted down to blog, hehehe)

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to u know who u are:

Its not about the ticket tt i am angry about, its the way you treat me.. its your life ok. being undecisive and wishy washy, will bring u nowhere.. keep simple promise. start want it, and not want it at the end. what's upp, man..
& quitting SW, is telling me even more.. u are not ready for any challenges.. if u are determined to work, any part time job will do.. its easy.. jus whether u wanna put urself in the race and to win this race eventually..
beeing with pple familar in ur part time job shld alr give u some courage to move on forward.. but u chose to quit, its being able to be independent, mayb there are other reasons..

u shld know i will never hold grudges with u, i will never ever.. but for ur own good, for urself, pls think it over...
U still continue being like this, never will u succeed in life, and by then when u regret not listening, i cant even help u anymore..

IS EASY TO JUST GIVE UP... but u haven even try... is better to fail than not to even try..

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is rhapsody concert tonight!!!!!! ermm.. i mean last night.. haha...16/11/07...
still rmb the last one i attend is during when i was sec 4?? shld be bah.. last yr is the art exhibition, alternating yr with concert and exhibition... yup.. shld be right lah...

still prefer the last one at victoria concert hall... maybe cos its my last year in HSS ,more memorable bah.. everything seems just so perfect... memory is always nice, but jus hope it dun fade away.. i have very bad memory...

this night at singapore conference hall is amazing.. though boring at the beginning.. the 2nd half was great, the hippy moves and the grooving.. saw a few of my juniors, clement, ali, benjamin,
the most shocking was sadiq and han seng... !!!!!!! OMG!!!!! i seriously have to wear another pair of spec to look at them now.. they are seriously good when performing silat...

yup today, my cutie little sweetie's birthday... haha... lucky O level finish then ur birthday loh.. still rmb my time, now is still the last few papers' date lah..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, nerissa!!!!!!!!
hope u can really do what i wish for u... its difficult, but not so tough... its do-able and its a once in a lifetime experience to really get to the goal... even i'm still learning how to do it well.... =D

MUackS..
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has been thinking of studying oversea.. actually its time to think about it alr.. is not to soon anymore... has been trying hard to get info from friends... its tempting to go for this 1 yr to get a degree, but recognition part, is unsure... just hope tt everything comes smoothly and end smoothly.. its all hope and wishes lah... gonna sleep liao... super tired!!!!! it has been a long week... hmm..

3rd November
3rd November 2007: shiok ah, finish O level liao... haha..

this is what we have been doing.. lol... at CP.. =P







3rd and 4th Nov, sat & sun... clean and green event at bishan park... first time being there......

happy deevapali !!!

but

nth to be happy abt, for me=(((

lose my things but dun lose my patience.. more 'gan chiong' the more you cant find..

lost my ez link card, this year's pass for NDP @ waterfront ,my vodoo doll...

like losing a few parts of me somewhere, jus dun feel good...
its not about money, its about the memories of it, during the event (the PASS!!!) no matter how interesting, u watch it more than 7 times , u will die, and i need to stand and pretend i'm so in it lah...

the voodoo doll is from nerissa lah.. i'm so sorry... i feel bad abt it oso... !!! is like a identity to SJ peeps lah.. so sad~~~!!!

haiz.... if it is mine, it will be mine.. if it is not fated to be with me.. then no point having it by my side....


aha, but smth to be happy abt, is tt i got a group of friends there for me.. heh =D
thanks LLY, HX, TBS, Jac & Reeeessss.... =)) thanks for the comforting and reminding... bEEE for the number la, gonna be useful (cross fingers, hope not) rees sharing ur experience of losing ur phone and nearly lost ur lappy...

thanks EVERYBODY! I AM SO LOVED! but still cant find so far lah...

moral of the story : keep things dear to you somewhere safe rather than putting it by your side.... (does not concern the Ez Link)

sat and sun! if u got see the news, its oso advertising...the clean and green program in bishan park!!! prime minster mr lee is oso there on sat to commence the event...

STUPID CPR EXAMINATION!!!!! IDIOT HQ PPLE

can u jus shut ur mouth if u dunno anything abt it!!!! tell me one thing , tell another person another!!! what u want!!! tell me!! tell me lah... rank big, big ah!? talk logic lah, dun talk rank.. talk to my FEET... even my FEET know tt u are even stinker than them..

I'm not talking about all of them.. some are really good advisors and mentors to learn from... but with the mixture of idiots, i rather learn smth, somewhere else than HERE!

this kind of things, is why i really consider to give lesser effort... waste of time to handle a batch of old aggressive unconsiderate asses! F off man... but i seriously still LOVE my CORP!! they are my babies ok?!! smth that cannot be replaced.. subtrate the high ranking pple (those tt dun deserve it, those tt climb up so fast not by effort,by smth u know, AT LEAST I DARE TO SAY TT I EARN MY RANK THROUGH OFFICER COURSE & THE EFFORTS AND RESULTS IN MY CORPS)

think HQ wan ur help means that u are so great, i tell u , u are wrong!


my heartfelt apology to the different corps and thanks fahmy in helping me.. if not for them, i need to rush down from ang mo kio, in a voluteering work..(next post, dun want to scold the wrong pple... and want this negative feeling to go away asap..)