do u think only u will get irritated... doesn't mean that i m always there that u can take me for granted... never ever taken care of my feelings... i feel sosososososo stupid in between u 2.. u happy come find me, not happy throw me aside like a ball... what's wrong? none of my business right.. y get me invovle...????????!!!!!!! feel like a idiot!!! i never get appreciated, in any ways... i have deleted all the sms u send to me..

DUN INVOVLE ME IN!!!!!


haiz... is another day passed... had a practical test jus now.. actually still ok.. can manage.. differential count a bit cheat cheat de.ahaha.. nvm lah..

hmm.. might be the last day attached to haematology lab le... has been quite happy here.. thanks to MJ and HX, making moments there so fun and interesting, and tt time pass so so fast...
Christina, our 1st mentor aka supervisor, looks damn cool and strict, jus by the looks, u will get intimidated alr... Never judge a book by its cover.. nice lady... =]
also, Selina, the second supervisor(y got another supervisor, very difficult to explain lah) , very friendly, made MJ, NRBC.. haha, his favorite...
really have to thanks both of them, but i dunno how.. jus deep in my heart, appreciate them as they are..=]

Hui Xian: Howell Jelly!
Ming Jian: NRBC
Me: giant platelets

hahaX.. tt's the nicks we get jus in haematology lab lah... i dunno what else we will get attached to other lab loh... haha...

hasn't been at home much.. haiz... and hasn't been sleeping much too... staying at home like staying in hotel. not the 5 star, but only sleep and online to do work. other than that i will be out of house...

always having mood swing at home.. weekdays reach home at 6, most of the time.. abt everyday loh.. by the time i reach home.. do a bit of revision here and there. do hmwk.. then is abt time to sleep.. in between if pple disturb me, really get it loh, u dun like.=( ... and the next day morning will be off to school..

haiz.. i oso dun want to be like tt.. so different from who i really m.. dun like it...

really like study life.. =]

it has been so long since i have blogged..

Since school reopen, i guess.. Have been in BLT for the past 1 week. Starting is always tough and difficult, when u have only urself to depend on.

But luckily, there are friends in BLT that are really very fun loving and nice.. also, ms chandran is there to help me when i need informations for my courses and the modules.. yah, is really stress being with her, coz she demands a lot, esp when it is good for my studies..

ms law too, motivates me all the while, even before the school terms start..


last sat, was zone 7 competition.. the 3 teams, all din do well.. I know is not their best at all, esp guys, still playing hours before the competition, not serious at all.. i know guys will be more playful, but not to the extent.. girls have been busy with other things.. i know is tough to cope.. It is what u have to go through to grow up, some obstacles to make u stronger.. "what dun kill u make u stronger" I always use this phrase to motivate myself as well. hope they can understand what it REALLY mean..

No matter what, you all are our champions..the best victory is the victory over self.. not over others.. improve yourself and not compare. tt is the real victory..

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1 week of BLT is really difficult, I have been trying very hard to cope and adapt.. have been going on very smoothly. and hope it continues..
me, hX, MJ have been attached to the haemotology dept.. christina is the supervisor there.. first impression of her, really cool.. dun dare to speak more to her.=P


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yst, went to changi airport to study with ms chandran and her markings & laptop. really helped me a lot.. she gave me her notes when she was in university.. a textbook, basic stuff..kenneth came super late and went off super early.. hahaX.. LOL...

she really dotes me very much, we leave changi at 945.. she cheated me!!! to take a taxi home and she paid for it. not fair.. ...


hmmm... so far for my course, haematology part, we did a lot of cool stuff. get to see all the diffferent cells in our body. do blood smear BY OURSELVEs, and look at microscope.. tt is really fun..!!! i love it.. but long hour of it, hurt my eyes..

christina was funny, ' i dun like HOT seats' when someone sat at a chair b4, she keep changing chairs.. hahaX.
when MJ call her 'teacher', her expression was so so so funny.. like all her hair stand up.. hahaX.. 'pls dun call me tt, call me christina' LOL...

she is really nice, she shown us her own collection of slides and borrow us her book for our reference.


Love them all =] <33<33

will really really miss the pple in SJ tt were with me all along, help me, guiding the little KIDS, and oso assist ms cow... haha..


not gonna see them as often like last time le.. hmm... but there was once mr gaius lee told me, 'when u think abt the past when u old, u have a facinating secondary school life.. i dun wan u to regret tt ur poly life is a boring and uninteresting one.. i dun wan Sj to pull u down, i dun mean tt we dun appreciate ur help.. We all really appreciate ur help very much.. next time u come back u will be the old old senior alr. ' we both started laughing..

its true.. and of coz, i know what it mean. i dun wan it to pull my results down and i oso dun wan it to put my social life a threat..


I understand tt he care for me a lot a lot.. since sec 3 sec4. when i was actively invovled in SJ and he was the OIC of SJ.. i talk to him abt my studies b4, coping stuff, etc..

and i know in HSS, many many teachers (ms cow, mslinda, ms law, ms wu, mr chua, mr G, some others tt may not be still in HSS, mr singh, ms lee, many many more ..!!!) care for me and love me a lot alot.... tt's y i m so sooo willing to be back to help..

LOVE THEM ALL... AND U TOO.. the one reading this.. i know u care=]

hi guys.. yst might be the last day i will be so actively involved in this activities.. though sad but life have to move on.. i know this coming year will be a very very important and difficult year for me... not to include my lousy marks i got for my 1st year, which is damn disappointing.. adds on to my stress..

though leaving is sad, i have to move on.. hmmm... i will be back once in a while i guess.. and the many many juniors back there to help. hope u could assist ms cow=P in achieving greater heights for sj, while i achieve mine..

but no matter what i will still stuck in zone..

is not tt sad afterall...

i had a 3day 2 night chalet with all my sec 1 and 2 classmates... is so sweet, reminiscing the past... and the days we had under mrs seah form class.... we chatted so so sooo long..

other than chatting, we play majong(no $$ de, we all broke liao, haa), watch movie, say lame jokes, talk a lot of crap.... we wanted another chalet b4 the end of this yr.. i wanted oso.. hmmmm.... hope it is true... is reallly very difficult to get together especially with lower sec friends.. we have great differences, but we can really forget abt tt kind of differences and go for a common goal. at the end, having great fun..

and when we are watching charlotte's web.. we keep on talking abt her..

they went OCH.. i wanted lah... but dun wan lah....

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Black friday..

actually quite ok lah.. but one stupid thing happen... i fell and hurt my back.. is getting really painful lah... sit and stand long it gets really aching... guess i m getting really old... haiz....

We stay in with Ms cow... hehe...

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back hurts.... slept on chairs and tables... slept very lightly first few hours, then is morning alr.. i sat up coz back really pain...

ms cow wake up le.. the i slept her place... think tt time i then start sleeping bah... wake up at 11+... nobody.. no sound.. no food.. =(

lucky got chinese course for the graduating students they got buffet!!

i dun like a person way of talking to me.... my mind is all of u all.. i tot all of us got no food.. i wanted to ask pple now to help get food up to the room, and all of us have smth to eat.... SO I WAS ALWAYS THE ONE BEING LEFT OUT.... SHOUT LOUD IN FRONT OF THE JUNIORS & A NURSE LAH... SHOUT SOMEMORE LAH!!!! i m only one person being left out what.. RESPECT, (spilt saliva) is what u learn how to repest a senior. now i get it. =/

damn ass.. ruined my whole day... WTF...

havign my chalet later...!!! wOaH.. YeaH!!!.. sorry for some tt i did not inform you all abt my disappearance... ahhaX.. i will appear on thurs... as much as possible i will be home...!!!!!

LOVE YOU GUYS A LOT ALOT X1000000000000000000000

we use a lot of effort in organising this chalet... everything will turn out fun! =]


PS: dun flood my tag box!!! =P

haiz... every now and then, each and every batch.. will have their own unique problems and troubles tt they create for their seniors. or maybe teachers loh...

though sometimes it takes lots of effort to solve.. is always mentally, physically and most of the time emotionally drained. super stress out... every senior will try their best to advise and guide them to the right path no matter what..

like today, actually meeting my friend at 5. coz of some matters with my juniors. A responsible friend or a responsible senior?

of coz, i chose the senior part.. y?
whatever i do now, i may change this person, this is the period of life whereby their character will be fixed.. sorry but to say i sacrifise my friends.. but happy to say tt we are having chalet soon... win win situation bah..

hope they know all these is for them loh.. next time when they have juniors they will start to know le loh...

today again went to the wake.. after the com briefing, quite a mess. but at least everything needed to do is done.. sorry, not really invovled, doing sm stuff, which i think in a long run is more convenient for me or rather the admin dept in zone..

din wake up early enough to do some stuff.. (but thx anw) left some stuff at home, shoes n stuff. haiz wear boots all day, although used to it in OTC liao. but still uncomfortable..

the briefing ended early.. 10+ n all gone.. 11+ left only our hss pple.. com team was 'scolded' ( '' is coz i dun consider it a scolding but jus a talk), by baba ma'am... train a while then chase out by uncle kassim, but yah, he is doing his job...

went on with ah ner. baba n kenneth... we were super hungry, i think only kenneth bah.. we decide to walk to the wake area, coz really quite near.. reach liao then call ting,. ting WAS SLEEPING... hahaX. poor kenneth, we actuallly wanted to walk back to KFC at BM...LOL... he was begging us to take bus or eat some other place tt is nearer.. yah lah, see his poor looking face, then jus take bus loh.. actually was bonding while walking.. so kinnda enjoy the trip..

FOODFOOD.. then i damn full liao lah... same usual stuff, kenneth eating a lot.. ok.. then we walked back to the wake area... haha.. we like walking bah... he very poor thing leh.. mayb coz only guy.. he take baba's umbrella n weall scare tt our bags will get wet.. =PP very bad, but took our bag like after a while..

we reach le then saw ting n the sis there.. baba n ner pplay playground.. -_-" childish.. ling ling n shamathi and surprisely paterica was there with the 2 of them oso,coming towards us.. woah... yah.. offer jossstick le then sit sit talk talk loh..

quite sad lah, when they say dun wan to come back help, though din say verbally, but actions speaks more than words... =,( but is their choice loh.. cannot force oso.. but lucky still got a few still coming back.. & oso comp team need to get on to their own and learn sth by themselves then they can survive the next time... hope everything goes well... exco camp. competition.. everything....

yah. oso me and ner walk all the way to pamela hse to put a thumbdrive in her mailbox.. hahaX.. she slping when ner call her.. aiyo. we all the way walk there leh.. very bad hor...

Mr G L's lifeskills lesson..

he said smth very true abt going towards adulthood... is easy to differentiate right from wrong when u r young, there is always a clear cut right and wrong when u r young... but once you get older there will have smth call the GREY AREA... not tt u dunno is wrong but u r still doing it... whether finance, relations.. anything..

ur conscience will feel guilty when u do it, but u will benefit from it in a way or other.. sometimes is no choice sometimes is for personal gains... it will be difficult to make decisons loh...

is true tt adulthood will have fun. but more responsibilities... not tt there are no fun times.. there are, a lot more than a kid...

got to chat a lot with ner lah.. she doesn't seems like emo emo kind lah.. but today i feel a lot of emotions from her when chatting..can sense ur concern & some sadness lah... dun worry so much loh... i know she will feel it jus like i do =]

got a friend of mine. or specifically a junior of mine, her grandma passed away.. jus in the middle of her lesson time..

she met me.. called me, ask me if i see her form teacher.. tot why she nv go to class.. she say smth happen to her grandma.. but she appear so calm.. i ask if she was alright. she seems fine & answer me saying she was alright too...

I dunno what happen at all, actually. her form tacher ask me y i call her, then i told her abt it, she tell me mayb going to the wake on friday or smth.. then i was like 'HUH?!" but silently..

ok. this is when i really got to know what happen.. tot was like nth..

she was really strong.. she din tear.. n i know she is not in good mood.. her nick on msn," she has left.. 05042007 , 0906.." i know she was quite close to her grandma, but maybe she know it was her time to leave alr. to somewhere where there is less of everything bad n more of everything good.. she will be really fine and very proud of her granddaugher..

cant imagine tt it would be one of my close one, how would i react? strong-willed or weak and break down, i dunno.. just hope tt she will be better after the wake..


tian xia wu bu shan zi yan xin... one will leave when their time comes... cherish the moments.. coz they will forever stay in your heart..<33

today SY say TT saw, the guy at busstop waiting for her.. haiz.. then SY, WL rushing me n NW to go to see.. i actually dun wan.. NW oso, i can sense it.. haha. she say very lame.. but she going the same route.. in the end followed.. .

i went home...

i REALLY give up on her alr.. in i-must-concern-list, i think alr strike her off. maybe only halfway through, if not for SJ...

is always the one who dotes u the most, gets hurt the most..

things happen for a reason, hope she learnt smth through it.. but hopefully without any harm..